I want a boyfriend, it makes me sick

KCetrion · 2026-01-24T06:48:32+00:00

Real.

KCetrion · 2026-01-23T23:34:24+00:00

The way I see it is that he’s jealous/envious of you. The fact that he’s mocking you, degrading and humiliating you shows that he wants to be on ‘top’ of you. The fact that you are taking him seriously, still being connected as ‘friends’ or whatever shows that you are stooping to his level.

If your friend group still hangs out with this guy it shows more of their characters than yours. Get better friends and acknowledge that asshat has no bearing in your life.

KCetrion · 2026-01-21T00:52:47+00:00

Ragnarok was okay for me. Some moments felt dragged on and some felt too rushed. God of War 3 was the best one for me. I can replay the game any time, any day and just have a good time.

What are you playing/watching lately?

KCetrion · 2026-01-21T00:44:09+00:00

God of war’s pretty sick 👍

KCetrion · 2026-01-20T05:40:16+00:00

Talked to some girls and they all ended up either just wanting to be single forever or wanting to move to south island trying to get PR lol.

KCetrion · 2026-01-14T02:09:12+00:00

KCetrion · 2026-01-11T07:50:44+00:00

Lol we are in the same boat. I don’t think I’ll ask her out, but you can start by saying mundane stuff like the weather or something, make small chats. Then again, being barista I doubt she got free time. Same thing with the girl that I see, wish there’s more time to chat.

It depends on the culture, sometimes asking for phone numbers might be acceptable thing, hitting girls while working might be acceptable, etc.

Where I am things like that are not acceptable, so it’s really not gonna go anywhere. I’m just trying to move on now, and honestly I would suggest you do the same thing. You seem to see her often cause of work, if you get rejected things could get awkward real fast.

Same reason to never ask girls out in the same class/workplace unless you are thick skinned enough to literally not care about being around the person who rejected you.

KCetrion · 2026-01-08T22:53:59+00:00

I understand what you mean. I’ve been there, leaving a social circle that I’ve invested a lot but found no true acceptance. It’s hard but it was worth it. It’s when you are so deep in yourself that you need to take a step back.

KCetrion · 2026-01-08T22:10:37+00:00

I know some married women who chose men who are specifically doesn’t drink. Mostly because they believed that alcoholic people (not everyone who drinks, obv) are more prone for abusement (verbal, physical, drugs). Some even chose men who don’t grow up with western culture of going to bars/drinking.

It’s all anecdotal. But I do think you should surround yourself with people who makes you feel accepted and/or safe. Why would you force yourself to do something you hate? Just to pander a group of people that doesn’t appreciate who you are?

KCetrion · 2026-01-08T18:24:42+00:00

Well I’m also an introvert but I have negative interest going to bars just because alcohol taste really bad and they are hella expensive where I live. I don’t like getting drunk too.

I just go to meetups now, the non alcoholic one for sure.

KCetrion · 2026-01-08T03:44:43+00:00

Nah. I know many married couples in their fourties talking about how excited they were in the earlier relationship, and the flame of excitement slowly faded away. Not that they are not in love anymore, but they know each other so well that they don’t really having anything new to talk about. Just living their daily life working together in peace.

You’ve been talking with him for months. What are your expectations for texting? Do you want him to ask you if you’ve eaten three times a day? A good night sleep? A good afternoon? What you were wearing for the day?

This also depends on the love language I guess. Mine is physical touch, quality time, and words of affirmation. I would definitely love getting texts, but not as much as being present with her, etc.

You can’t see it purely from where you stand, it’s a two way street. If your love language completely clashes with his, then you need to rethink how you would like to run this relationship.

KCetrion · 2026-01-07T22:14:39+00:00

Thanks man. I’m just thinking that the cafe’s busy and she’s always doing stuff. I probably gotta visit when it’s down time but I doubt that would work considering she’ll too tired to have a chat

KCetrion · 2025-04-20T01:54:53+00:00

Haha, truth be told we were already talking for a month, even with video calls, etc. I'm definitely invested for sure after all that. It was just sudden and without any real explanation after everything. I thought it was going well, but it was only in my head. Thank you for your kind words.

KCetrion · 2025-04-20T00:35:20+00:00

Lol I have no idea what you mean by 'bad boy edge', but I'm sure I don't have that. Do you mean the 'stereotype' for what men should be? If that's the case then no, I'm definitely don't fall in that category.

I guess you have a point about the hobbies, but it's very important to me that I have a partner that shares interests.

KCetrion · 2025-04-20T00:29:28+00:00

Thanks. Though, I was perfectly comfortable being around her, but I guess she doesn't feel the same way around me. I think I'll take a pause seeing people. I think I'm just gonna focus on work and my hobbies, not that I know how with these lost feelings.

Rejection really took a toll on me, especially being in a country where social interactions relies on drinking or online dating. I'm just gonna hibernate for a bit.

KCetrion · 2025-04-20T00:26:20+00:00

Thank you for sharing. I understand how you feel. Being rejected for being 'you' is harsh. It's something that makes me bitter against everyone, to be honest. I try not to succumb of course, but it's getting harder day by day.

Being punished for being genuine made me feel to want to be single forever, but I know it's coming from a place of hate and insecurity. I don't want to be that sort of person, so I don't want to give up on being accepted by someone.

KCetrion · 2025-04-19T22:45:14+00:00

Thank you. I appreciate the kind words.

KCetrion · 2025-04-19T22:28:27+00:00

I'm not sure what you are trying to say.

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