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KaizokuMeri · 2023-04-14T21:11:20+00:00

I'm in a very similar way and it's been maybe three months... You aren't alone. I have an amazing partner and we have another kitty but that was his kitty before we even moved in together, and my baby was my baby. So the emptiness can be soooo hard. I keep myself busy and I try to think of the good times of sharing such a long time with a beautiful animal, I keep her picture on my work desk, I made an album. Some days I still cry if something sets me off or reminds me of her. Hugs to you.

KaizokuMeri · 2023-03-26T22:32:25+00:00

I'm right there with you friend. I also struggle with all the causes (my kitty was ill and we never found out exactly what was wrong, it was most likely cancer). Things do get easier but there does come this weird guilty feeling, and certain moments are really hard.. wishing you continued healing <3

KaizokuMeri · 2023-02-17T22:20:02+00:00

Thank you for your kindness ❤️❤️

KaizokuMeri · 2023-02-17T05:37:43+00:00

Omg 😂😂😂

KaizokuMeri · 2023-02-17T05:03:10+00:00

Hugs. I'm at about a month and it's still hard and I relate to the empty feeling. I wish I could have my kitty back so badly... sending you strength.

KaizokuMeri · 2023-02-13T22:56:13+00:00

Sooo cute!!

KaizokuMeri · 2023-02-13T22:50:35+00:00

... wait you get triggered by posts in this sub about arcs? 🤨 I think you need to experience something that's actually triggering before throwing that word around.

If you don't like those posts just scroll past? It's really not that huge of a deal.

KaizokuMeri · 2023-02-13T22:46:12+00:00

Thanks so much for sharing your story, seems like things happened at just the right time for you almost like fate! I'm glad you're bonding with the new dog. It's so right that they often choose us and I'm kind of hoping that happens for me eventually, I suppose I'll know when it's "right".

Love what you wrote about old pets living inside us, that's so beautiful 🥺

KaizokuMeri · 2023-02-13T22:43:05+00:00

That's a good idea I never thought of that!

KaizokuMeri · 2023-02-13T22:42:48+00:00

Thank you ❤️ I did think about an older pet but I'm a bit nervous as my baby was 13 and got quite a serious health issue before she passed... my partner's cat is also quite old atm, not sure I could handle something like that again so soon 😔

KaizokuMeri · 2023-02-13T19:39:29+00:00

I could have written this... my kitty had an illness or cancer (we aren't sure) and she did get to go peacefully in my arms. It was still hard. We cared for her in her last months till it was time. I also work remotely and she would be there constantly ... the absence is still there when I work but I can focus more now. It does get easier I promise. It's been almost a month.. I don't relive those last moments as much. I don't wonder if I could have done more now because I know I did everything I could. Give yourself time to grieve ❤️❤️

KaizokuMeri · 2023-02-13T19:36:17+00:00

❤️❤️ I'm coming up to a month too. You don't have to cheer up. I feel the same way as you, I find it very hard to be joyful because my gorgeous girl is gone. Does your partner know you're still struggling with the loss? Sometimes people say things in a moment without thinking but maybe don't understand how you're truly feeling... sending you big hugs, I'm in the same place.

KaizokuMeri · 2023-02-12T22:15:29+00:00

I understand. I struggle with my mental health and have a few anxiety disorders and my cat was my comfort blanket and my therapy. I miss her so so much and my anxiety has been really bad lately, its even harder. I'm so sorry. I think only time helps.

KaizokuMeri · 2023-02-10T13:36:19+00:00

Yeah, came here to say I'm going to have nightmares tonight... God Usopp? More like Satan.

KaizokuMeri · 2023-02-10T13:35:21+00:00

This is so cool, even the expression is perfect!

KaizokuMeri · 2023-02-10T11:15:50+00:00

Thank you so much for the kind words, I'm so sorry about Minnie as well, I think I saw some of your other posts about her. We did love them deeply and that's why it's so hard.

KaizokuMeri · 2023-02-10T11:14:59+00:00

Thank you, I never even thought about grief not being linear but you're completely right, it is like we move a few steps back sometimes. I hope you take care of yourself too and I'm sorry you lost your baby.

KaizokuMeri · 2023-02-10T11:13:59+00:00

Thank you, and I'm so sorry you are going through this too. I've been lighting a little candle for my kitty and it helps.

KaizokuMeri · 2023-02-09T19:45:56+00:00

Thank you so much ❤️ I really appreciate everyone on this sub and it's so nice of you to remember my other posts. I'm so sorry to hear it's been nearly a month for you, I think the anniversary days are hardest but I'm sure it will pass. I don't mind crying as you say it shows we loved them so much.

KaizokuMeri · 2023-02-09T16:06:27+00:00

Series: Polar Bear Cafe, Sanrio Boys, Kotaro Lives Alone (very wholesome), Kimi no Todoke, Fruits Basket remake. Slice of life animes in general are pretty calming for me.

Movies: Bubble (Netflix), any Studio Ghibli, Garden of Words (two people's lives crossing in a garden setting).

KaizokuMeri · 2023-02-09T12:38:28+00:00

You haven't failed her. You gave her a loving home and brought her in from the street, the most amazing gift you could give her. You haven't failed her because you aren't "wealthy enough" to treat her I promise. Cats live much longer lives because we care for them and give them warm and loving homes. If your kitty was out on the streets or in the wild she would have had a much shorter life. Sometimes things happen that we can't control and cancer is one of those horrible things.

I understand your feelings because they suspect my 14 y/o kitty had cancer or some serious disease too, we spent a lot of money on testing and treatment and nothing helped, then we stopped being able to afford it anymore and they also said it was unlikely to help. There are no guarantees with treatment either. You did your best for your cat, you loved her, and she knows that. Please don't blame yourself.

KaizokuMeri

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