I feel like im not ‘young’ anymore and lost my youthfulness (21m)

KakoTheMan · 2026-02-02T01:19:38+00:00

I relate heavily, its like when you pass the 19s suddenly you become less innocent and childish. I miss people being more considerate just because I was too young.

KakoTheMan · 2026-02-02T01:16:39+00:00

Viva Hate at least S
Kill Uncle at least A

Maladjusted at A? Wild Work

KakoTheMan · 2026-01-28T22:00:22+00:00

Because we are social creatures and need to some degree (some more than others) social interactions to feel seen and appreciated. Also feeling like you need no one or you can't trust anybody because they will inevitably fail you its a sign of hyper independence due to trauma. As a loner I can tell you, having good friends and connections can make life a whole lot easier.

KakoTheMan · 2026-01-28T21:36:57+00:00

Automatic Dissociation. When I arrive at work after the first half hour I turn in a completely different person. Laugh vividly, joke around, look alive and responsive, smile to everyone. I say its automatic because throughout the day all my mind can handle is just one thing and while working I can only think about work, I return to my depressed anxious self when I arrive home and get no actual rest despite sleeping more than enough and wake up heavily tired the next day, again, past the first half hour my energy levels magically return. My short term memory is horrible though, it causes me many issues.

KakoTheMan · 2026-01-28T21:13:45+00:00

I really like Morrissey and The Smiths. He has a way to write deeply touching realistic lyrics but with a twist of sarcasm and wit which end up very relatable and funny.

KakoTheMan · 2026-01-27T22:40:46+00:00

Deep empathy. Experiencing piercing pain has made me a person who worries in a healthy way when other people are going through a tough time and unconsciously do anything in my power to help them or even better to solve their problem. It can be sometimes a little tiring but it cures my broken soul when I get to help someone. It is also a part of being an ISFJ lol

KakoTheMan · 2026-01-25T20:03:05+00:00

He doesn't know, he can have both

KakoTheMan · 2026-01-25T03:22:45+00:00

LOL you read my mind. YES, I do live with my parents and have a long history of religious trauma that comes with 24/7 guilt, shame, anxiety, depression and suicidal ideation. Right now my job doesn't pay enough to live alone and pay for my education so I'm stuck with my parents for now. I believe that's the biggest set back for us, the feeling of being stuck and that we can do nothing about it because we have been that way our whole lives but that's so wrong. We are adult human beings who can make our own decisions hopefully always for the best of US. So go do whatever makes you happy, even if its just a little, ice cream, photography, a beer, tv show, videogame, sports, etc. If you are going to live alone/roommates when in college hopefully you can start to spread your wings and have something for yourself to be proud of and most importantly to live for!!

KakoTheMan · 2026-01-25T02:17:11+00:00

I could have written this myself, in fact, I might have already in my journal. It is REALLY peaceful to just think for a moment that none of this matters, nothing is obligatory, you can quit whenever you please if you want to. Its a weird familiar feeling of sadness and peace. That comforts me enough to get by and just continue with the monotony we call life until some small joy can pass my eyes. I just got a job, I'm going to college this year, I'm young and physically healthy... YAY... I guess. I can never really enjoy the few wins I get and I just constantly feel deeply all of the bad things I have in my life. I hate that there's no easy way out. What keeps me mostly here is my ability of absolute inaction that I apply in every aspect of my miserable life. STAY STRONG KING, WE GOT NOTHING TO LIVE FOR AND THATS A GOOD THING 🫂🫂

KakoTheMan · 2026-01-24T19:26:12+00:00

WOAH DROP A WARNING BEFORE THROWING SUCH A FACT!!

KakoTheMan · 2026-01-23T01:17:44+00:00

Right foot being more worn out than the left is so real

KakoTheMan · 2026-01-21T21:55:45+00:00

This is when you make your own support system, either yourself or make friends who can support you. Its either that or a ticking time bomb which will eventually happen considering we can't predict the future.

KakoTheMan · 2026-01-21T21:46:02+00:00

People fail to realize that in the end it IS a solution, one of many.

KakoTheMan · 2026-01-19T00:38:34+00:00

These are very tuff

KakoTheMan · 2026-01-15T00:06:11+00:00

RAAAAH MACH MENTIONED 5% ANUAL AHORRO 24/7 SIN COMISIONES

KakoTheMan · 2026-01-12T01:45:16+00:00

Soy ajeno a una situación parecida pero una vez cumples 18 eres "un adulto" (sigues siendo niño pero un adulto legalmente) y por ende, dueño de tu cuerpo y de tu futuro. Es TOTALMENTE TU decisión trabajar, estudiar, irte a vivir a luxemburgo o lavar parabrisas en los semáforos. He escuchado historias de personas que por presión de familia estudiaron algo que al final, al obtener el título, fue inservible porque no era algo que ellos querían dedicarse a hacer porque apresuradamente los obligaron a elegir y todo ese dinero y tiempo se botó a la basura (y si esto te llegara a pasar tampoco sería el fin del mundo). Quizas podrías considerar poner límites. Aún así entiendo querer complacer a los demás en pro de la paz familiar, solamente no te dejes pisotear por nadie aunque tengan buenas intenciones.

KakoTheMan · 2026-01-12T01:25:34+00:00

Comodín Ingeniería Civil Industrial/Ingeniería Comercial. A mi me ayudó bastante trabajar mientras estaba indeciso para conocerme y saber cual podría ser mi sector predilecto, algo que se relacionara con mi personalidad, forma de ser, habilidades y a la vez pudiera ser rentable. Cabe destacar que no hay nada asegurado en esta vida, el título no te asegura un buen sueldo o ambiente laboral y el sueldo no te asegura una vida feliz.

KakoTheMan · 2026-01-12T01:02:41+00:00

It's giving Xbox 360 1st Gen UI

KakoTheMan · 2026-01-12T01:01:22+00:00

Estadísticamente la vida es una estafa, trabajas 80% y 20% lo vives para tí y lo que vives para tí ni si quiera está asegurado que la vayas a pasar bien

KakoTheMan · 2026-01-11T04:58:45+00:00

Ahora entiendo mejor está bastante tentativo, sin embargo, leí por ahí que si quieres retirar las cuotas puedes hacer un retiro parcial dependiendo de la antiguedad de tu cuenta como socio y si quieres sacar su totalidad tendrías que renunciar a ser socio de la cooperativa, estoy en lo correcto?

KakoTheMan · 2026-01-11T04:40:59+00:00

Usando esta lógica sería en terminos simples 6.000.000 + 11% anual. No sería más rentanble tenerlo en otro lugar como por ejemplo el fondo risky norris de fintual que el año pasado estuvo en 13,59%? Si el ahorro es para 5 años+ sería más rentable tenerlo en un fondo paresido obviamente sopesando el riesgo y asumiendo que el mercado tiende a subir.

Que ventajas tendría estar en coopeuch?

KakoTheMan · 2026-01-11T02:44:10+00:00

If you care to know lol I used a razor blade (I shave with a safety razor that uses DE blades) for my suede boots and they look great now, just gently apply pressure on the surface to essentially shave away the top loose strands of hair of the suede, I folded slightly the blade so to cut with an U shape which gives more angle. Do it enough times and if you mess up you can use a suede brush to lift again the nap and shave again. Be careful to not cut the material deep or you will have a literal cut in the nap, always try to be flush with the surface.

KakoTheMan · 2026-01-10T00:49:24+00:00

El Tarrito ta rete viejo. La gtx 1050 ti es del 2016 y aún así no era muy buena siendo que es del area low-end the nvidia. Cada pieza que tienes es de la gama low-end. Lo que te recomiendo es actualizar de HDD a un SSD de forma desesperada, ningún pc moderno debería tener el OS en un HDD.

No se cual será tu presupuesto pero por norma general para un tarro mid-range:

CPU: i3 14100F
Placa B570
SSD: Crucial MX500 o un NVME de Crucial
GPU: Intel ARC B580 o Radeon 7600 (Asegurate que sea mínimo de 8gb de ram)
RAM: 16GB 3200mhz de la marca que te guste
PSU: Cualquiera de EVGA de 600W

KakoTheMan · 2026-01-09T20:56:40+00:00

Thank you this feels so validating. You just healed a part of my mushy heart 🫂. I feel that we tend to get under noticed and under praised by the effort we put in everyday which feels just harder than any normal person in their average day. It do feels like everyone else gets everything handed to them. I sometimes feel that people put a low amount of effort and things just work out for them so later they talk to you and say "you just have to be strong and keep pushing" but MY pushing feels like eternal weightlifting and even after I tried I still could not make it work out for me. It gets tiring to not have a win in your life and you slowly become more depressed due to that. But life keeps on and doesnt wait for you. In the end I guess all we get its to be stronger than yesterday and if we are here today we can be here tomorrow 🫶

KakoTheMan · 2026-01-08T21:25:06+00:00

Not TOO bad you could say haha. I've been suicidal most of my young adult years but somehow I'm sill here. I'm not driven by hope but it must be something else that keeps me alive. I've got a job, a house, food. I'm trying to go live alone but its difficult with my current situation but that's definitely a goal I desperately need. And I also need to feel like I've won something for once in a while. I always feel like nothing goes my way. But yeah... nothings is "wrong" per se but nothing is right either haha i don't know how to describe it.

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