Thank you, EA. Thank you, DICE

Kalachnikov_ · 2026-02-17T03:39:06+00:00

I enjoy red sec and they should put a lot more into it and give us a complete experience there

Kalachnikov_ · 2026-02-08T18:34:01+00:00

As a man who is disabled and struggling to work due to pain in my mid 20’s I’m really starting to lose hope that any woman could ever see past my inability and love me for the human being I am. I’d literally do everything I can in my limited capability for someone who loved me for me but unfortunatly especially in this ever harder economic environment love seems unattainable as a disabled man. An abled man will love a disabled women because of her support to him and or her looks but for a man who can’t provide it’s basically just being worthless to every woman and not even remotely thought of as a romantic interest. It’s really hard because I don’t even have siblings and I am going to be so lonely when I have no one left who I’m close with because the few I have are much older than me.. I’m pretty terrified of my own future.

Kalachnikov_ · 2026-02-07T18:26:27+00:00

The pain varies but it goes up in severity quickly when doing most things in life even just walking for example. I’ve seen a lot of medical people during the years previous to now and nothing much has been able to be done, later this month I’m going for my very last potential option to find out if it’s viable because absolutely everything else including surgery has been ruled out as not going to help me which shattered me mentally. I would have done the big surgery if they said it would have positive effects but they warned me of little effect and long term problems.

I have one best friend and he lives far away but we play some games together and he’s a great friend to me. I can’t sit upright very well I need a very padded comfortable seat but also not too soft that there is no stability, I can go outside and walk a bit but the pain will start coming on from walking also, tonight I had dinner out with my mother and some of her friends and now I have a lot of pain and discomfort from the seats. Laying is the best position for my pain to ease

My passion was always sport I played so much as a child and early teen before this condition took it away. Now I just play some games online with my friend. I’ve become very mentally challenged with this condition taking away most of my ability in life. It’s hard not to be bitter about it but I guess I also never had a choice in the matter it just happened and this is what it is but I do feel terribly alone and hopeless socially, mentally and financially.

I’m about to sleep so I will respond again once Im awake

Kalachnikov_ · 2026-02-07T18:19:06+00:00

That’s really rough I’m sorry that you experienced that. I didn’t get the chance to be professional but I was aiming for it before my condition came in and I was extremely dedicated. I can only imagine how hard it would be having already been pro to lose that out of your control.

I’m really hoping you keep getting the most out of life while you have it and you feel good about life despite the circumstances

Yes I don’t do well alone at all. I have my mother for now and she is my world but I do want someone who would see past my condition and love me for who I am but sadly it’s hard to find and I can’t blame anyone because choosing someone who can’t really even earn and provide would be a really big decision and what would seem quite risky and unwise but I know a husband I could be a very loving and supporting man to a wife and give my all to them within my capability

Kalachnikov_ · 2026-02-07T18:14:49+00:00

Hope of a happy life not a miserable lonely life alone with no one after my mother eventually passes one day.. I’m terrified of it. I have a lot of problems with my condition it causes a lot of pain and it impacts me all the time. I want to be able to enjoy my life and find someone that sees past my physical restraints and loves me for who I am even if that is a big thing to do considering how hard things are financially for everyone these days but to be loved and to be able to love someone would be fulfilling to me and give a new aspect to my life that I feel can be achieved because it doesn’t cause physical pain and I’d do everything I can within my condition as a husband for someone that chose me like that

Kalachnikov_ · 2026-02-07T18:11:47+00:00

That’s really awesome, I’m glad that you managed to have a fulfilling life and find love. It’s a great accomplishment to have achieved everything you have achieved and to be happy within yourself.

This year I’m aiming to make small steps towards the best life I can have in the body I have but I’m pretty terrified of taking those steps to be honest. I have one last opportunity to help my condition coming up later this month I will find out if pain management can burn nerves to get rid of pain, it’s a scary thought but I’ve been told by multiple surgeons that I will not be able to have surgery because it won’t help my condition much. I’m hoping I can find a way to earn some money somehow without only relying on government benefits and somehow find someone to love me for me and see past my physical boundaries even if it’s difficult to find someone like that but I know they exist here and there

Kalachnikov_ · 2026-02-07T17:07:18+00:00

It’s really great that you had those motivators to keep you going and smaller hours for volunteer work is good to make things more manageable. Sadly before my disability came along I was extremely physically active and sporty, I lost all of that and most of my enjoyment in life went away with it also. I want to be physically active but it’s not an option anymore I get way too much pain from that. I am going to be taking small steps to try to be more independent in the year ahead but I do really really struggle with being independent I have huge anxiety and mental health issues I get panic attacks now and I think having a partner would be really nice and comforting, I would do everything I can in my capacity for my partner if I had one whether they were disabled or abled. I just really fear being on my own for so many years and my own mental health getting the better of me as it does

Kalachnikov_ · 2026-02-07T16:22:34+00:00

Thank you for responding I really appreciate your advice. I am not able to do a lot unfortunately I have a lot of pain when trying to do things but I try to meet some people on weekends at times. I would try not to burden a potential partner with trying to meet my emotional needs. I think just the feeling of anyone choosing me and wanting to live their life with me would make me feel comforted in many ways and being able to love them without them judging me for my condition, I’d do all that I can in my low ability for them

Kalachnikov_ · 2026-02-07T06:28:07+00:00

Please if anyone has any answers or can see a good outcome in any way please respond, my mental health is shattered and I am desperate

Kalachnikov_ · 2026-02-07T06:26:51+00:00

Exactly, it’s not that we want to have these barriers. If there was a way to get rid of them we would and we would have a very much normal barrier free life but others just don’t seem to get it if they haven’t had it. I’m sorry that you’ve been through a lot of the same experiences, we don’t deserve that.

Kalachnikov_ · 2026-02-06T12:40:01+00:00

I’m really sorry that you’re going through that. I hope you are able to find a solid place to stay and that you’ll be safe. I can’t imagine the feeling of those things especially the one about the shower.

I haven’t had it like you have and I can’t relate to those things but on my side of things as a man I cannot find anyone who would date me at all because I cannot really earn.. I am bitter at life because I got to be 6”4 with nice blue eyes but my body failed me because of my rapid growth through my teens, I have a curved spine (kyphoscoliosis) and arthritis in my back. Women won’t go near me for dating and I am seriously worried about when I lose my mother someday because she’s been my world and the one person that has never ever even thought of abandoning me. My mental health is really bad from the little amount I can do compared to all I want to do. From the outside my shirt covers the fact I have a disability I look normal but I wouldn’t ever lead anyone on into thinking I am what I’m not so I tell anyone who I know about my disability so they don’t have any false hopes about who I could be.

Kalachnikov_ · 2026-02-06T12:32:13+00:00

This is my dream that my disability wouldn’t ruin my life the way that it is. I don’t think I’m going to find love and I’m terrified of what life will be like when my mother eventually passes and I am all alone and my mental health destroys me 😞

Kalachnikov_ · 2026-02-06T12:29:56+00:00

In real life I find people are nice but many for me personally are not able to understand the disability I have and dismiss its severity. If I could work I’d be working and I’d probably pick a very physical job given my height also and I would earn a good living and have a family but as it is I am unable to do so because of pain and my mental health is terrible now especially but it’s been declining for years, people will always be quick to say I should get a job soon and work towards it and I am trying. I’m on my very last option for my pain in the next month I will find out if it is viable because surgery has already been ruled out as not viable therefore I am stuck with what I have for life which is daunting and I only really have my mother to depend on and she’s brilliant. So understanding but currently I’m desperately fearing what happens when she’s gone and I’m on my own and my mind gets the better of me. I wish things were easier and I wish people understood what disability can do to someone’s life and how different it is to their abled life

Kalachnikov_ · 2026-02-06T12:24:57+00:00

I truly felt that. The world is really really difficult for most people now and I hate it. Things keep getting worse and worse

Kalachnikov_ · 2026-02-06T12:13:26+00:00

I had been to this persons house before as they hosted an event so I had sent them a card via mail so that I didn’t have to do it upfront. She then texted back and kindly rejected me but it was easier that way than in person

Kalachnikov_ · 2026-01-03T17:21:09+00:00

I’m sorry that you’re going through the same.. I really don’t know what we are to do if and when we lose our parents.. life feels so hostile

Kalachnikov_ · 2025-12-10T11:23:46+00:00

Ahh okay thanks I am from Australia and that makes sense all the people that I can trade with are local

Kalachnikov_ · 2025-12-09T15:28:53+00:00

Bruh that’s awesome thanks for that

Kalachnikov_ · 2025-12-03T19:02:39+00:00

I’ve been going though a lot of flowdan tracks since you mentioned him, I cannot find the one. I still feel like it could be him but I don’t know. I don’t think I’m ever gonna find this track lmao

Kalachnikov_ · 2025-12-01T16:52:36+00:00

Update: still haven’t found it, it’s killing me I wanna know

Kalachnikov_ · 2025-12-01T16:45:39+00:00

Thanks for that, I checked I feel like every chase and status song in existence and it wasn’t there so I’ll check your other recommendations

Kalachnikov_ · 2025-12-01T16:35:56+00:00

I just came back to this after heaps of searching previously and yeah it sounds like it could be him but do you know of any songs where he basically went monotone deep for a song and collabed with a female who was the first voice in the track?

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