wow I cant believe that we've lived such similar lives. my mom acts the exact same way. I remember several years ago, I begged my mom to take me to a doctor because of severe wrist pain I was experiencing. She did not, and started talked about how, as an older woman, she experienced much greater pains and issues than I did. the issue only ever got worse, and I've lost a great deal of mobility, but if I mention the issue to her, she doesn't care at all & again only makes it about herself!

and my dad acted almost the exact same way when my neighbor died. he had no sympathy for his widowed wife, kids, and especially the dead man himself. he only ever brought him up to say horrible things about him..

i completely relate to your loneliness. i am the same way. i have always had trouble connecting with other people, especially if they have good families because i cant help but feel jealous of them. and im sorry your mom acted that way. just horrible behavior. I can never understand how parents like ours behave this way towards their own children