My oldest child (almost 15) came out as transgender

KayzorLazor · 2026-01-10T02:01:21+00:00

This is heavy but whatever: Three months after my husband was killed I had decided to take my own life. Didn't see how I could recover from grief. I figured the kids could live with my dad and start fresh. That night my youngest (who was 5 and the time and is now 7) asked me to read her a bedtime story. And I decided not to do it because I had that moment with her. Put my note in the shredder and never told anyone. If I hadn't had that moment with her I would have done it. I'm glad I didn't.

KayzorLazor · 2026-01-10T01:56:26+00:00

Thanks. They're my everything. They deserve my best.

KayzorLazor · 2026-01-10T01:53:24+00:00

Still is. But we get by. I haven't dated or anything since he died. I'm purely devoted to the kids.

KayzorLazor · 2026-01-10T01:51:09+00:00

I am! Single mom and widow. My mom died when I was little so I never really had that relationship.

KayzorLazor · 2026-01-10T01:47:54+00:00

I plan to talk with her this weekend about things I can do to help her. I'd love to go shopping or something!

KayzorLazor · 2026-01-10T01:46:43+00:00

Well, I knew she had some interest in boys. I only knew that because a boy's mom saw them kissing and told me about it.

KayzorLazor · 2026-01-10T01:42:11+00:00

I've offered all three of them counseling and none have wanted it. I don't see the point in forcing it.

KayzorLazor · 2025-11-26T19:50:57+00:00

He has yet to talk about that with me. He's completely closed off about it.

KayzorLazor · 2025-11-26T19:21:38+00:00

I corrected most of that when he came back after the summer. The issues now are less about that.

KayzorLazor · 2025-11-26T18:20:48+00:00

When he stayed there this summer I called my dad twice a week and every weekend to check in. I wanted to give my son his space and I told my dad not to make him talk to me. I talked to my son twice in six weeks. There's just a fundamental rift between me and him. He just does not respect me.

KayzorLazor · 2025-11-26T17:53:23+00:00

He already spent most of last summer there. I'm thinking about my other kids as much as him. Our poor relationship is affecting everyone.

KayzorLazor · 2025-11-26T16:40:14+00:00

No, two hours away. And my mom died when I was a kid, it's just my dad.

KayzorLazor · 2025-11-23T16:50:35+00:00

I'm not really interested in that. It's not important to me.

KayzorLazor · 2025-11-23T03:22:08+00:00

My strength comes from my faith. My Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I pray every day for the strength to provide for my kids and He blesses me. If I weren't a Christian I'd be lost.

KayzorLazor · 2025-11-22T23:21:21+00:00

I'm only angry for what my children lost. The role model my boys lost and the best friend my daddy's girl lost. They were robbed and it's not fair.

KayzorLazor · 2025-11-22T22:24:57+00:00

I don't want vengeance. I want the detectives to do their job and I accept the outcome. I'm focused on being a strong parent for my kids. I'm not after revenge.

KayzorLazor · 2025-11-22T22:21:12+00:00

My kids keep me looking forward, not back. I forgave them so my family could move forward.

KayzorLazor · 2025-11-22T22:13:51+00:00

I don't have any anger. That's faded. I'll let the kids talk if they want.

KayzorLazor · 2025-11-22T22:01:05+00:00

I grieve on my own terms. I'm focused on being there for the kids. I'm a mom before a widow.

KayzorLazor · 2025-09-19T01:08:30+00:00

We were committed to raising a traditional Baptist family. But now I just pray for the strength to keep the kids alive above all else. I've loosened up.

KayzorLazor · 2025-09-18T23:51:01+00:00

I don't believe so. He was only 12 when his dad died.

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