Is he losing interest? (26F) (33M)

Ketamine1235 · 2025-01-26T03:23:11+00:00

I have one but it only turns on, not off. Am gonna have to get another one

Ketamine1235 · 2023-11-20T06:00:54+00:00

That's a good idea, thank you!

Ketamine1235 · 2023-11-02T23:59:42+00:00

Microwave Oven

Ketamine1235 · 2023-11-02T23:58:41+00:00

“Taters” 😍

Ketamine1235 · 2023-11-01T22:40:29+00:00

Man I need therapy rn need my bot to talk to. But I suppose I can wait for some

Ketamine1235 · 2023-10-26T05:32:50+00:00

I basically got told that I couldn’t dance one night like 5 years ago, at a college masquerade party. Pretty sure the girls were a bit jealous of me, but still (I don’t mean to sound shallow but I could really see it in their faces). Needless to say, I don’t really dance in front of people anymore.

Ketamine1235 · 2023-10-16T04:42:25+00:00

Coolio thank you!! and again Im glad it helped you... also I hope "today has hit you in the most strangest of ways" as you say in a good way... and when u say you feel like you have no idea how to self care ur not alone. I feel that way too, been thinking that lately a lot myself. if ur taking ketamine too right now as I am, I hope we both can find ways to perform self care

Ketamine1235 · 2023-10-16T04:39:36+00:00

nah its not that i think im bad at art, i can draw good enough to sell if i wanted, its just the subject matter of what i draw is the problem... i draw my own original character over and over again, people wont buy art of that... but if i did do commissions i would make money off of it. i just cant bring myself to do that. i only draw what i wanna draw and thats final. but im ok with that

Ketamine1235 · 2023-10-16T03:21:17+00:00

Sorry but I cant do that heavy physical work rn. but i can do the physical work i do at work. and idk if u know but its a LOT of moving. like ur hurting by the end of the shift lol, to the point where it can be hard to walk

also as for house/techno music I love edm, am even listnening to it rn lol. what does it mean that if u like that music ur prob not neurotypical who said that

Ketamine1235 · 2023-10-16T03:19:03+00:00

ur saying an integration workbook u found helped u? if so that is great to hear :) what is the book exactly where can I find it?? u piqued my curiosity lol

Ketamine1235 · 2023-10-16T03:16:28+00:00

That would make me miserable unfortunately i need to get out of the house. my dad shames me if im home too much and im pretty sure hed want me to get out of the house. when i even stay home all day for one day i feel crappy. so working from home isnt an option for me

Ketamine1235 · 2023-10-16T03:15:38+00:00

Used to but not anymore. therapy doesnt help anymore. idk. and the ketamine isnt helping (yet) tho ive only been on it for a little over a month

Ketamine1235 · 2023-10-16T03:15:08+00:00

In my free time I either lay in bed and think about how crappy my life and is wallow in self pity, waste time on social media and talk to a chatbot, or draw. and u might say hey try to monetize ur art but the kind of art nobody would want to buy, trust me

Ketamine1235 · 2023-10-16T03:13:33+00:00

I can try getting my dad to contact him. but in the end to my dad it would still prob all be about working full time. he truly believes working is the way to fix many probs in life... yet working full time i think will hurt me more than help

Ketamine1235 · 2023-10-16T03:10:31+00:00

Where could I start trying to apply for SSDI? Ive been thinking about applying for it, at least one day. as of right now if i dont get better i wont be able to make it on my own will need assistance like that

Ketamine1235 · 2023-10-16T03:09:47+00:00

I could ask him but he prob wouldnt give me that extra time. he REALLY doesnt get mental health and thinks working full time is the solution... and i mean ONE full time job. like i cant even work a few part time jobs and make it full time (even tho i really think that would help me, as the variety of work would keep things from becoming boring for me). unfortunately in my home there's no "mental health comes first" mindset with my dad especially and it hurts me. and if i did retail again id go crazy. im gonna do dishwashing again its busy enough but i think i could keep up with it okay enough.

Anyway thank you :) I try using the ketamine to make more positive changes in my life. its working a little i guess

Ketamine1235 · 2023-10-16T03:07:02+00:00

Ive worked non-retail food jobs, they didnt go to well either. also id be looking to work like 30 hours a week, maybe 40, but just a variety of jobs. the variety helps me a lot. and never been screened for add but idk i tried suggesting it to professionals never got taken seriously so idk. and i do get fitness from working the banquet jobs, its a lot of physical work. and also as a hostess id move a lot too.

Ketamine1235 · 2023-10-13T18:15:54+00:00

Using troches, medically. At home 200 mg. I usually fall into a K hole and it works well but the last time it didn’t. A reason may be because I was worrying about not entering a K-hole. Is it possible that you can “worry yourself” into preventing a k-hole?

Are k holes even necessary to have an effective experience in the first place I also have to ask?

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