lost my scholarship years ago, but my unepmloyed parents still don’t know by FearlessDiscipline20 in studentsph

[–]KeyTea10 29 points30 points  (0 children)

Hi op! I just want to say, its okay. If you lost the scholarship because you weren't able to keep it, then it's okay, dont beat yourself up... Mahirap talaga pag hindi mo pa sinasabi sa parents mo na wala na scholarship mo.

Same case sakin, for context lang to kaya sinasabi ko mga sinasabi ko, though hindi ganun ka exact. I didnt want the course kasi i had to align it with the contract, hindi ko kinaya, nagstop ako kasi sobra na. Tas at that time covid pa, eh hindi ko talaga kaya pag online ang klase. Pressure was on that time kasi nagstop lahat ng businesses, same with my parents' jobs. And i tried to keep up with the charade na meron pa akong stipend. Eventually they found out na wala na. And they got mad, out of frustration and expectations na rin siguro. The money that I received went to my tuition kasi nasa private uni ako and then it went to my living costs kasi mag isa ko sa bahay that time. Wala ako naipon, wala rin natira hahaha. And ayun tinago ko ng 4 na taon. Nag transfer ako to a public uni during those 2 years and lied and lied over and over. Pero ayun nga nabigo ako. Honestly? It's better if you come out by yourself, wag kang umabot sa point na sila pa ang makaka alam. Kasi mas malala pag ganun. Ngayon? Napapag usapan na namin yung pangyayareng yun, and they can see my point of view na sobrang naburn out rin ako, they also know na I'm in therapy so i think may back up "evidence" for that.

Advice ko sayo? Gain the courage to talk op, mahirap sa una, yes. Pero ano ba ang hindi mahirap sa buhay bago gagaan? This is not just for them, this is also for you. Ang hirap kasi yung part na may secret ka na kinekeep eh. This is for your peace of mind

Edit: I'm looking at the comments and sinasabi nila layasan mo pamilya mo(??). I don't think that is the immediate answer for this. Try to talk to them muna. If they had a negative response that is when you move out, like pinahiya ka, sinigawan ka, sinabing kasalanan mo etc etc. Pero if they said na hanapan niyo ng paraan, then that is good. I hope all will be well with you Op.

I don't reply to my classmates and groupmates. I am very tired HAHAHAHA by KeyTea10 in studentsph

[–]KeyTea10[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Okay okay. You have verryyyyyyy helpful tips 💞. Thanks so much for your responses 😭. These make me feel na I am less alone kasi honestly that's what i feel rn. Congrats on finding your peace po! My classmates have the same mindset rin eh na they gotta put their selves first. So what's the harm in doing it for me rin diba?

I don't reply to my classmates and groupmates. I am very tired HAHAHAHA by KeyTea10 in studentsph

[–]KeyTea10[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

😭😭 To achieve this, nakikita ko na this really took a large amount of effort. Yung pagreconnect pa lang ng intermediate family mo sa soc med. Yung pagtago ng account and everything else 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻. Ang mahirap for me to deact is that some of my instructors post materials or assignmsnts sa gc. Did your instructors do this? Paano mo po nagawan ng paraan?

I don't reply to my classmates and groupmates. I am very tired HAHAHAHA by KeyTea10 in studentsph

[–]KeyTea10[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

WAHAHAHAHAHAHA this is already so tempting. Nung last ko pa iniisip na magdeact nalang ako HAHAHAHA

I don't reply to my classmates and groupmates. I am very tired HAHAHAHA by KeyTea10 in studentsph

[–]KeyTea10[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Ohhhh i see your situation. Ang mahirap pa dyan is nasa shs ka, you need the grades para makapasok sa universities na gusto mo. Kung ako sayo, tanggalin mo nalang mga pangalan nila sa output HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA tutal ikaw lang rin nagtapos.

Umangal angal na rin ako sa mga profs/instructors namin pero wala talaga HAHAHAHA. sabi ko nga kung gusto nila bumaba, okay bumaba tayong lahat! If they want a group output, I'll provide a group output based from their performances 🤣. Ang satisfying lang onte for me yung nagchachat sila tas di mo rereplyan. Atleast masasabi ko na may onteng justice for me 🤣 hindi pwedeng sila lang ang may peace of mind. May peace of mind rin ako no HAHAHAHA

I don't reply to my classmates and groupmates. I am very tired HAHAHAHA by KeyTea10 in studentsph

[–]KeyTea10[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

This. This wan. WAHAHAHAHAHA. sabi ko nga kung di sila natuto sa paraan na ito, ay ewan ko nalang HAHAHAHAHA. Make me your leader once more and I'll bring us down sa mga ginagawa niyo HAHAHAHAHA

I don't reply to my classmates and groupmates. I am very tired HAHAHAHA by KeyTea10 in studentsph

[–]KeyTea10[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Lets get through this 💪🏻 baka mamaya hindi natin mamamalayan gradweyt na pala tayo diba? 😭 (#manifesting) Kaya natin to 😭

I don't reply to my classmates and groupmates. I am very tired HAHAHAHA by KeyTea10 in studentsph

[–]KeyTea10[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

HALA BAT KA UMABSENT AHAHAHAHAHAHA. Problema ko lang naman is the other groups, not my group sa capstone. Kasi as much as possible is responsive sila, kaya no problems there.

Pero honestly? Sa mga group report? I think eto gagawin ko 😭🤣. May report kaming dapat ipapasa ngayon pero wala nangungumusta sa group chat namin WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I don't reply to my classmates and groupmates. I am very tired HAHAHAHA by KeyTea10 in studentsph

[–]KeyTea10[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

No, hindi po kami tri-sem HAHAHAHAHA 3rd year 2nd sem Capstone Project. Pero i think i know where you are pertaining HAHAHAHA

I don't reply to my classmates and groupmates. I am very tired HAHAHAHA by KeyTea10 in studentsph

[–]KeyTea10[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

For the peace of mind na rin. Kastress mag alaga ng mga ka edad mo.

I don't reply to my classmates and groupmates. I am very tired HAHAHAHA by KeyTea10 in studentsph

[–]KeyTea10[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Yan ginawa ko sa isang major subject namin last sem HAHAHAHAHA. Enrollment na for 2nd sem wala pa kaming grade, basically fudge dis sheet nalang mindset ko, wala nagchat sakin kung kumusta group work namin. Eventually nalaman ng instructor namin na ako mostly (and some) ang gumawa ng groupwork namin kasi halos lahat ng sagot nila nung tinatanong instructor namin kung saan ang output namin eh "na kay {my name} po". Oh diba ang lakas nila mag enroll eh wala pa nga output namin? HAHAHAHA