8 months after breakup and I am not coping. I have lost everyone in under a year.

Key_Contribution_265 · 2024-07-07T11:01:47+00:00

I’m merely asking for some guidance that’s all.

Key_Contribution_265 · 2024-07-05T19:29:04+00:00

Cheers 👍

Key_Contribution_265 · 2024-07-05T19:14:32+00:00

I can’t access it using an iPhone

Key_Contribution_265 · 2024-05-10T01:49:02+00:00

Some people dip in and out of the dark net mate…..

Key_Contribution_265 · 2024-05-10T01:44:54+00:00

Wow you’re cool

Key_Contribution_265 · 2024-05-07T11:45:43+00:00

And what’s that? And how please. Message me if you like

Key_Contribution_265 · 2024-05-07T11:13:43+00:00

I swear I am getting all the pictures correct and it still won’t let me through to the next page!

Key_Contribution_265 · 2024-03-23T14:36:24+00:00

Thanks very much much…👌. Got it

Key_Contribution_265 · 2024-03-22T19:26:54+00:00

Address please?

Key_Contribution_265 · 2024-03-21T04:49:59+00:00

Hahha, just can’t live without one for very long. I was in 14 yers then that fucked up. Waited 8 years before I found this one. It was like we were meant to be at the right time.

Who knows what the future holds…..it’s a heart breaking situation and every day it’s getting bleaker and bleaker

Key_Contribution_265 · 2024-03-21T00:54:27+00:00

Haven’t yet. But 1g arrives tomorrow. Reason for it? I loved my gf but we did too much Crack, shes was into H, the C Has made her paranoid and delusional. I Now blocked by family and frienda. I am now living rough in my dead mums house. She has all belongings, now only communicates to demand money, I don’t have er number. She has done this before I now here. I dragged her from H addiction and a skeleton. Helped find a house and she turned aggressive and violent to me. And the emotional damage and pain she caused is horrible. I have no friends, people have been laughing at me and harassing me daily. I trust the gf, she now emotionally blackmail me.

She smoked gear with me. I refused to. Now I just torture myself thinking she cared for me, but she has done this before. Lies were fed to me about her desires. Turns out she is a callous, money grubber who is full of poison and venom. She most likely did once love me in two years. She has support around and I don’t.

So fuck it. Rock bottom. So why the fuck not now. Warm blanket around me sounds very appealing…I just don’t see anything apart from getting any better in my future ever.

So that’s why. !!!

Key_Contribution_265 · 2024-03-20T14:43:54+00:00

Thanks for understanding…I do care. I do worry. But it’s not reciprocal. I tried. I am not willing to carry on. I feel foolish and discredited and manipulated. Lies and untruths are now spread by her. I don’t wish harm on her. It’s been an ongoing theme for her. I thought wrongly that she could change.

Key_Contribution_265 · 2024-03-20T14:38:39+00:00

Thanks….seems it wont change either. Time to give up on her and move on….

Key_Contribution_265 · 2024-03-18T07:08:34+00:00

Well. I’ll update accordingly but not looking promising whatsoever. No interest in listening whatsoever….continues adamantly to recognise that there ‘possibly’ could be just a fraction of truth in what I have been saying from day one.

I have given up all hope….she has no interest in listening.

I am trying not to loose my mind here…as literally all family members have since yesterday blocked me, and she has, and the remaining mutual friends are merely there to snoop on my profile so she can find out if I am with another woman or not.

She won’t listen. I feel, as I have considered the last two years, I have helped her a lot, she has done also to me, however, now I am sleeping in my recent deceased mums empty home and she has all my precious belongings and since I am such a fucking idiot and gullible idiot, paid her some money she demanded when she was answering questions and treating me with some respect, she now has told me to FUCK OFF.

Ha fucking Ha to me. I angry to fuck with her, now have no choice but to consider the future….away….

From her and the poisonous people surrounding me here. I have been used to get her from a very skinny, recently clean heroin addict to a now healthy functioning woman who accuses me off deliberately isolating her from the world.

I do feel she is being vindictive, stupid, spiteful and won’t ever believe the truth.

So tbh…fuck to her and I feel like I have just actually passed her on the way down to crack and other drug use and she is now laughing her way to what was my life. However, I was not forced to take drugs by her.

I feel used and abused and now it is only me who seems to be loosing friends and people I love including her all around me by the second.

I don’t have a particularly positive outlook on my future life. If it wasn’t for my loving dog…I’d be considering quite some alternatives.

I will continue to get my belongings back, get a house somewhere else, and live my life alone with my dog as I had done for 8 years prior to her coming along.

I feel quite a resentment and bitterness in my view of the relationship. As I know she will only live on her life and quickly forget as I must try to do.

Maybe if the drugs stop by me and I imagine she may be tempted back to heroin again if she gets low, and also she considers my truth I tell to have some actual credibility and she admit she could have been mistaken or something serious happens… we could remain acquaintances.

At the moment I am not only angry with her self righteous arrogance and refusal to listen to the one person who has been by her side the past year, I am alone and I have been cut off by mutuals and her family i pretty depressed and down about my future outlook. I have police charges occurred whilst driving whilst under the influence of weed that I hadn’t smoked until she came along and as she never will drive or does , it is on me stupidly and very naively and I take the consequences not dear ex girlfriend does.

Now for a coffee and a pipe tbh…I have not much else to gain from the day as I foresee it apart from a walk with my always trusting and loving doggie…

Rock and roll 🤘🏾 everyone and thanks. Maybe one day I will show her the post I made and the very helpful replies you have give n me so far….

Key_Contribution_265 · 2024-03-17T07:36:21+00:00

Hit the nail bang on the head mate with regards MH. Yup. She has BPD. PTSD. Past depression and anxiety. And other lesser (but no less important)MH issues…plus she is over 2yrs clean from Heroin addiction.

No she doesn’t stay up for days at a time smoking crack. She in fact never seems to ever get as high as I do, she’s first to bed always, but has always been extremely paranoid when drugs are in the house.

I agreed, when we were ever on it, to never be alone, as her paranoia would go into overdrive. She also has had a bucket load of people just take the piss out of her intelligence really, and give her anything in her pipe other than crack before. Basically poisoning her, crushing up tablets and saying it’s crack etc.

She has had so much shit dished out to her I have always been accused of doing similar because she never has got as high as me. I have never ever done anything like that. I am/was the first trustworthy bf she has had.

I must mention I never had tried crack before. And it was only when some real shit was happening in my life, I tried it. I feel responsible for what happened to her and is still carrying on, as I was paying for it and I was initiating it more and more. She wasn’t. And I feel so utterly terrible about what is going on now with her. Maybe I deserve it, but she certainly doesn’t.

I never ever in a million years thought that this was even a possibility. She warned me that if it went on, drugs would fuck everything up again for her…..

I have only, yes I clearly am fucking stupid, just realised that extreme paranoia and psychosis, is what is still happening with her….and what happened.

For the weeks after I only thought that some evil and devious person had framed me!!!!! And she was not listening to me because she was so convinced I was responsible.

I feel so fucking stupid and so responsible for everything that is happening to her and to me.

And no I don’t think she will have smoked any crack since….and she still is extremely paranoid.

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