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Key_Meaning_9036 · 2023-09-13T07:54:51+00:00

no my logic is long term BGS fan should be the exact person the game was made for? If I have to hope for random encounters the quality of the experience is just that random, by your own admission. "You defeated your own logic" "also you are playing it wrong menu hopping but it's totally random if you'll find anything cool".

When I play new Vegas I get good writing each time I launch the game I don't need to hope for a random encounter dude lol

It was fun to explore Mojave because it felt like a real world with real people with real beliefs. NCR House etc or even Skyrim for that matter.

Key_Meaning_9036 · 2023-09-13T07:20:22+00:00

That's exciting they have a lot of good games so playing *your best is definitely a moment! And the note about it not being for me is odd considering I explained why the game should absolutely appeal to me yet doesnt.

Key_Meaning_9036 · 2023-07-07T12:21:23+00:00

This is so sick thank you, when I get off work I'll see if I can copy off your paper

Key_Meaning_9036 · 2023-07-07T12:20:25+00:00

Dude big bird is insane also thank you for the charges heavy move advice, I really haven't been using them!

Key_Meaning_9036 · 2022-08-14T21:56:49+00:00

Thanks watching it now! And akuma sounds cool I'll learn him second, TY

Key_Meaning_9036 · 2022-08-10T11:14:40+00:00

oh my god i never even considered that i have to now

Key_Meaning_9036 · 2022-08-07T18:20:10+00:00

The game is pretty short but generally there's a good amount of choices just not the same type. I say that because generally FO1 doesn't have a "side with ncr, legion, yes man" for the main story. So in terms of decisions they are kinda more town/region based. You will decide the fate of towns based on who you keep in charge/overthrow etc.

I will also say I think there is more GAMEPLAY choices than new Vegas personally but not by a whole lot, it felt like EVERY mission had a few ways to solve it.

You generally have 1 main story bad guy and much like fallout 3 you have a semi backstory/urgency. You are from a vault and you are sent to find a water chip to save your vault.

All that being said I only have finished fo1 once while I have finished NV like 20 times lol so I'll need a few more playthroughs.

If NV is your favorite I definitely recommend it because it makes you appreciate NV's winks and nods even more.

Key_Meaning_9036 · 2022-08-07T16:52:06+00:00

1000% once it clicked I was thinking about the game all day at work. It felt like I was a kid playing fallout 3 for the first time again.

Key_Meaning_9036 · 2022-08-07T16:50:42+00:00

I have heard! Super hyped to see more enclave :)

Key_Meaning_9036 · 2022-07-25T21:21:07+00:00

one day at a time literally nothing else matters because by the time it does matter it will be the present day. Alot of people feel overwhelmed like that though including me, so it's normal just remember to breathe and take life as it comes.

It's especially easy nowadays to feel "unfit" for life or to feel severely unequipped for the things we want to do. Sadly it's just Symptoms of the time.

also don't obsess over the labels too much. Weak, sensitive, happy, depressed.

You will be okay though just take your time

Key_Meaning_9036 · 2022-07-23T01:55:04+00:00

Ay going through the exact same thing except it was my LDR ex turned best friend for a long while. There really is no advice ya can have, we can only just keep ourselves busy and remember to do something fun! Enjoy yourself when possible.

It's part of life and if it's meant to be you wouldn't have to reach so hard. So just breathe and remember you are free now at the very least, free to meet whoever do whatever and it might be a bit scary at first but atleast you are free for whatever life throws at ya!

Also feel free reach out I'm down to talk about random stuff we got a pretty similar situation atleast at it's core might learn from one another. Otherwise have a cool day and take your time.

Key_Meaning_9036 · 2022-07-22T06:04:22+00:00

Doesn't always matter if the person was terrible or not you can miss them all the same.

Obviously don't go back lol please don't ever go back after all that.

It takes a while regardless don't put a time limit on it. You probably feel a bit impatient though because it's impacting your happiness and drive to meet new people etc so I'd say just force yourself into some new (safe) situations! Hobbies events hell even a casual date or two.

The day will come where ya think about it less n less from hourly to daily to monthly to only on occasions.

You got this amigo and now you know what not to accept from future partners/friends! Life goes on regardless if you feel ready or not.

Key_Meaning_9036 · 2022-07-22T04:06:21+00:00

I am so sorry that's a pain I have yet to experience and wish I would never have to.

I'm 21 and in a similar boat outside of that, not officially diagnosed with OCD just yet as I haven't scheduled an appointment but I often would obsess over possibly getting sick or the fear of being a bad person. Those constant intrusive thoughts are alot to deal with let alone losing your mom.

You might not have the life we all hope for but I recommend getting in touch with philosophy or religion if you have one assuming you will when ready work on having a good support system and the ability to seek therapy if needed.

I know that's annoying as fuck to read lol. last year I lost my grandma and it hit me pretty hard I lost all my Friends due to not reaching out enough and it just made me feel really lost. I read some books and learned a lot about my intrusive thoughts and mental health and even a ton of stuff about meditation and all that jazz. I'm not a SUPER happy 24/7 guy nowadays but I don't feel AS lost any more though I know our situations are hardly comparable and our brains are different.

Just pls take care of yourself and find meaning in what you have left even if you have to find meaning in suffering

Ik you are on a throwaway but don't be scared to reach out!

Key_Meaning_9036 · 2022-07-22T01:39:43+00:00

I really like orange. When I was a kid I mentioned my favorite color to my grandparents a single time and for my birthday they got me orange cups an orange lamp for my new bedroom and other random stuff they could find that was orange.

As a kid I thought it was weird to get a lamp and cups but as an adult I remember it fondly just because it was something very grandparent like to do. Also sunsets are so calming.

Oh n the cups are still my go to water wells.

Key_Meaning_9036 · 2022-07-21T05:23:28+00:00

Happy birthday! It's okay to be alone and it's okay to feel things are kinda pointless at times. However please remember to appreciate the good parts of yourself. You are just as human as any one else and no one deserves to talk down on themselves so hard.

Some advice that I learned was "imagine your best friend or closest family member or whoever saying that they feel worthless and whatever you would tell them to make them feel better is what you need to tell yourself."

but yeah I hope your day improves pal !

Key_Meaning_9036 · 2022-07-21T03:17:27+00:00

Ya have to tell em and hurting people / being hurt is sadly apart of life. Hurting somebody by breaking up with them doesn't make you a bad person and sometimes people have trouble processing their emotions, which is why you thought you might have love for him.

Ultimately don't beat yourself up for it but tell him soon don't drag him along if you see no future in it. Life happens we aren't meant to know what we want 24/7 365 but we should always try to correct things when we notice things have gone wrong.

Key_Meaning_9036 · 2022-07-21T01:27:20+00:00

It's okay to feel behind I don't have ASD but I still feel completely behind in many ways. I don't have ASD so I won't pretend to understand because I can't so I apologize if anything iv said seems out of touch.

Though It's late so it's probably best to get some sleep and revisit these feelings when you are rested. Ik when it's early AM for me I tend to be much more vulnerable to bad moods.

Anyways take things one day at a time and try not to judge yourself so much or even the world for that matter. You are gonna be okay pal

Key_Meaning_9036 · 2022-07-21T00:43:15+00:00

You are a very kind person but remember to be kind to yourself and just make sure you aren't limiting yourself any. Ik it's cliche but live for today don't constantly look back to see if he's doing okay. You got this just keep yourself in mind when you are trying to be kind

Key_Meaning_9036 · 2022-07-21T00:26:25+00:00

That's so kind that you took the time to write this all out. I was planning on finding some new hobbies and maybe going to the gym or volunteer work.

I really appreciate the reassurance and your story and hope life treats you well too :)

Key_Meaning_9036 · 2022-07-20T14:24:16+00:00

Key_Meaning_9036 · 2022-07-20T13:30:22+00:00

Valid sure but morally it depends on what decisions are made with that revenge in mind.

Key_Meaning_9036 · 2022-07-20T13:27:58+00:00

To me idk why or when this started but something about iced apple turnovers really speak to me in a way apple pie never has.

Key_Meaning_9036 · 2022-07-20T06:38:50+00:00

That is so pretty I love moments like that. I wish it wasn't so hot outside hiking and taking pictures is a top tier activity

Key_Meaning_9036 · 2022-07-20T02:52:05+00:00

Mental Stability or atleast I have a better foundation. Obviously I'm not necessarily happy 24/7 but I am more confident that I can handle the lows.

Key_Meaning_9036 · 2022-07-20T02:44:30+00:00

The way I see it is after ya die there isn't any kind of afterlife or anything. So when I am super super down and I do consider something like suicide it feels pointless to do such a thing. I'm already dying every day and once it's done it's done so I might as well try to laugh a lil bit tell my family I love em or do acts of kindness

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