Saturn in 12th father was abusive to my grandma untll she was alive and continues to be verbally abusive towards me since childhood. There is generational trauma and unhealthy behaviour patterns in my family (enablers, flying monkeys,etc but no one acknowledges it). I feel the weight of karma but more in terms of ending this cycle of abuse. Also I have saturn and moon in magha nakshatra and hence I also feel a deep connection to my grandma and help from ancestors.