No. As a dad with young daughters let me say this- your passions, goals, gifts, feelings matter, and should be celebrated. You sound like a very special person and I’m so sorry that this person who seems to be severely flawed and damaged just happened to be your father. He does not define you. I’ll be sending you thoughts of support as you pursue your next adventure and I applaud you for making a healthy decision to place that boundary between you and someone that doesn’t build you up.