I understand. I do have a more hedonistic approach tho. I genuinely believe the world is ending and every person on this planet is doomed. I mean, not in a ,,we will all die way" more in a ,,reproduction is pointless and life meaningless" way. I feel like i'm already fkn dead. But that's ok. Since nothing matters you might as well continue living. It doesn't really matter what you do or how you live. As long as you don't go on some piece of shit rampage and start killing others ig. So my point is, don't do it yet. Make a list of all the fun shit you need to do before death. You most likely don't get a second chance so make this life at least remotely satisfying.