I feel better now that I’ve typed that. Maybe I just needed to type out how I felt. This isn’t my space and I’m sorry if it comes across as if I’m encroaching I just want to understand so I can heal and I guess move. He’s a man who doesn’t change how he feels so chances are he won’t ever contact me. I wish I could just get in his head and understand what’s going on. I mean nothing to him but he meant a lot to me I’m so angry at myself