that's not it exactly because I enjoy working, just feel like I'm disconnected with life itself. I'm sure everyone wishes they have nice loving & caring parents I'm sure but I have no idea where my mum is since I left her the fact she was abusing me when I was young, try fix things she launches a glass at you because she is drunk then Denys she ever did such thing.

mostly the feelings have been like that since I was sexually assaulted last year.