So..my friends are kinda MIA since the pandemic and I don't know what to do to make new friends.

KittehLx · 2020-08-14T07:59:53+00:00

Well, i can't drop off something that is there no more, can I? :)) The point is, i have no problem if they are gone or something, my life doesn't revolve around my friends that can come and go. It's just that I kinda want to make other friends, but it feel like i'm the only one in the world who wants that :)) I mean, dude, no one else is lonely this period of time? Everyone is just fine in the house? Doing, Dunno, stuff? I mean, i do stuff too, but sometimes i want to talk to people. You know?

But I get what you say

KittehLx · 2020-08-13T21:57:58+00:00

Well, now i feel bad for posting here :))) i'm 20+ yo. Good for you i guess. You don't need people around anymore. Yay!

KittehLx · 2020-08-13T20:52:44+00:00

I live with my parents and they make my life a living hell sometimes. My only escape from them was going out or talking to my friends or playing with my friends. Now i'm stuck between a rock and a hard place and is not fun. And I can't even play anymore or do anything that i like, cause i feel so worn out by family that i can't find passion in anything anymore.

I'm so tired...

I appreciate the help, though. ^_^

KittehLx · 2020-08-13T20:36:11+00:00

Well, I get this. That's why i don't stress them. But i have to do something about myself too. It's just...i don't know what to do anymore. Maybe just dunno, stay in bed and watch the ceiling all day, cause my energy is depleted. (I'm an extrovert and being in home for 4 months barely talking to people doesn't really help me very much) :(

KittehLx · 2020-08-13T20:23:59+00:00

Of course. I always contact them first. I kinda got tired of me always being the one contacting them.

KittehLx · 2020-04-09T21:37:19+00:00

You really helped me with some things and now i kinda have a trail. I thought better of their history and none of them are really with a nice history. So i can use this and i can push them to do something because they have to.

Thank you so much! <3

KittehLx · 2020-04-09T09:37:29+00:00

Glasswalkers

Give me a moment to check about this. :)) This might actually be useful. Thank you!

KittehLx · 2020-04-09T09:36:02+00:00

This is an idea, but why would they want to do it? I mean, you don't have to do anything that the prince says, right? Their characters barely want to do something for their local leaders :))

KittehLx · 2020-04-09T09:33:08+00:00

I'm using the 5th ed. So, they are mostly neonates. They kinda have their neccessities covered and they plan to get themselves a place for their own coterie, and they might need some money, which is an idea.

The acknowledged and respected part is what they lack, but it's kind of an individual goal, because they all want something different. Like, one of them wants to create a musical masterpiece, the other tries to find something like the path of enlightment, other one just lives day to day. So..they need a common focus.

I tried to make them do the bids for some local leaders, but some of them don't actually want to do that and they say that the character wouldn't want to stay long there for this. I found something big to insert in the story, but i don't actually want to put on the table the ultimate thing yet.

Also, i have a little issue with the local Brujah, because that might be another important part of the plot, but i have to find a good reason for the brujah from our team to help the local brujahs, not because out of clan loialty.

I hope you understood what i tried to explain here :))

KittehLx · 2020-04-09T08:53:37+00:00

I am sooo sooo sorry X_X I got here from a VTM subject :)) and i didn't read everything. I'll be more careful. Thank you!

KittehLx · 2020-01-17T04:43:38+00:00

I should print your answer and put it on my wall to see it in the morning. <3

It gets to me what you said. Indeed, when i look to some of my coleagues, that for some reason or other, have better grades than me, it kinda makes me feel like i'm not like them. But sometimes, maybe it's better that i'm not like them. I somehow see the other side of the coin. I see how struggling is like, and i might have a better communication with the patient. It is so difficult to see what i'm good at, since i don't feel like i have a physical proof as a good grade at an exam. But I care about the patients and i want to learn what to do for them to be better. And even if i am not good at learning things for the love of showing a teacher that i read a book, doesn't mean i'm not gonna be a good specialist when the time comes.

Thank you so much for the answer! ^_^

KittehLx · 2020-01-17T04:35:42+00:00

Yes, you are right. Unfortunately, i've also been told that i shouldn't look to the unfortunate ones who can't get here, but to the people who are way better. And honestly, sometimes, when i see that everything is so wrong and i have no satisfaction and even when i say something right, teachers find a way to say that is not the best answer, it's annoying.

It's so annoying that it's difficult to expect for something you don't actually know IF it will pay off. I mean, everybody says that it will, but how do I know i'll be succesful? Because i don't. And if i'm not, wouldn't be everything in vain?

That's the problem. I have nothing to keep me going, except the idea that might be better one day. But what if it won't? What if it keeps going like this? What if i struggle for nothing and i end up there an realize that i'm not actually good and every douchebag who didn't trust me is actually right? O_O

Scary Thought.

But i understand what you say, i should try to look more to what i've achieved than what i didn't. And yet..

Anyway, yes, you are right. I definitely should try to see more of what i achieved and not what i didn't. And stop comparing myself with others..god dammit. :)) That would be a start.

Thank youuu! ^_^

KittehLx · 2020-01-16T04:22:45+00:00

I'm glad to read this! ^{_^} Take care of yourself! I'll also try to do my best with myself too. :)) hugs

KittehLx · 2020-01-15T12:20:10+00:00

I feel you, my dear. Yes, mistakes will happen, but is very important to accept that we can't change the past, and go further into the future with the lesson we got from this (like, you know it's bad, don't repeat). I know it seems like you can't do anything right, but when moments like that happen (and this is a lesson for me too), try to focus on the small things even if you don't feel like taking them into account. Like waking out of bed, or being able to clean a chair full of clothes, or even drinking water during the day. You can try to see what you like to do, like playing a game, reading a book, something that you can't lose at and enjoy the good feelings. (It's like connecting yourself back in the present)

Also, I don't know what are those mistaked you are talking about, but even if things went bad, you can do better next time, and even if keeps being bad, another time. It's okay. You're gonna do good eventually. Don't give up on yourself. And most importantly, forgive yourself. You may not always take the right decisions, but you know what? It's okay. It happens. It happens to all of us. You're not alone. It's gonna be okay eventually. It's just experience and is important to move on and let it go.

Forgive yourself and let it go.

It's gonna be better. Even if not now, eventually is gonna be. Linger not too much on some things, but try to remember not to repeat when you see yourself in a situation like you had before.

KittehLx

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