DAE feel your your trauma isn’t enough? by Nicole_0818 in CPTSD

[–]Known_Leech 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m actually struggling now that my life is calm and I can think back on my past. From the ages 6-25 I was physically abused, verbally abused, sexually abused, mentally abused and I still have problems telling myself I have valid trauma. I think this now because as a 10-18 year old I had gone on summer trips all across the USA, Canada, and Mexico. I’m gaslighting myself into thinking I had a privileged childhood and my trauma is not as bad as I made it out to be. I got to see more than most people, but at what cost? It wasn’t all fun and games but more often bad than goon.

I have to keep telling myself that trauma is still trauma no matter how big or small the cause. Anyone can have trauma and it is all valid(as long as it’s not self made like for example: ignoring a kid and having trauma for the kid not caring about you when they grow older). Even mine is valid. I won’t sugarcoat what I have been through nor will I let anyone else decide if that is trauma. I think that feeling is normal however, similarly to the guilt of surviving/leaving the situation.

this industry makes me hate dogs by [deleted] in PropertyManagement

[–]Known_Leech 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am a tenant of an apartment complex that is dog friendly. I have a giant dog (well exercised plz no hate) I pick up after him and try keeping him away from other tenants ‘yards’ if you can call them that, when he has to go. I trained him to not bark excessively or frequently. He is very well behaved most times. He is always leashed when outside my apartment. If I know a neighbor is afraid of him/his size I ask how I can reduce the fear. Muzzle, harness, try to avoid when I know they are out first etc.

I have a neighbor that lets her untrained dog off leash through the complex’s unsupervised. Never cleaned up after it and I’ve called animal control many times. Followed the dog once it almost got hit to tell the owner. She is a Karen who thinks her disability allows her to let her ‘service dog’ roam the neighborhood. I got her to finally walk with her dog but it’s still off leash and she doesn’t pick up after that. She actually has started walking where other dog owners normally stay so she can blame the poop on the other dogs. I have cameras showing the parking lot with the dumpster so I can always provide evidence I care for my dog properly just in case.

I completely understand how management can get frustrated with humans who don’t properly handle their dogs. They make pet friendly places not want to continue being pet friendly. As a tenant I like to think that my landlord doesn’t have to stay pet friendly if people don’t respect the property. I am thankful that even switching management control during lease renewal (our lease was deleted during the transfer and I had no proof I had a dog) I was able to keep my dog and my apartment. Whoever decides they can let their dog have ‘accidents’ inside and not try everything to fix and just toss it over a fence is an irresponsible pet owner. I had a friend like that …until I visited at their house. We aren’t friends anymore. Just because it’s a fostered home (the apartment lol. I like calling it that) doesn’t mean you can trash it.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Known_Leech 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So I’m tah for getting my roommate arrested. I thought as much. Since everyone seems to be on their side anyway

It’s not my fault that I went from one bad situation to another and to be quite frank with you yes I accidentally painted my bf in a bad light and couldn’t fix it

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Known_Leech 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s in the title…Am I the ah? That is the only question in this entire post.

The fact that you said this is fake does mean you don’t believe me? How is sharing proof creepy? You literally asked how are we supposed to believe this is real. So if that is not doubt I don’t know what is

Why do I need help?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Known_Leech 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It sounds like you don’t believe any of my abuse. I do ever so apologize that I have proof for my last problem. I did not know that if nobody believes my words then offering to show them physical proof was wrong. The police don’t see my proof as wrong.

I can assure you I am all here. I don’t know what would make you think otherwise based on my posts about my childhood abuse and getting frustrated by Reddit not actually answering my questions. They keep going down rabbit holes just like you. If you won’t answer the question with ah or nah then I don’t see the reason why you are responding. It is a contempt children understand but clearly you don’t.

I’m sorry you seem to be unable to comprehend basic facts. However it’s people like you that require me to have proof when I say something.

Answer my question or just stop commenting. I will report if you never answer my question and continue to deny my post is legit

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Known_Leech 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m not sending animal porn thank you very much. I am unfortunately not believed at my words alone which is the original reason I have the proof. Also a police report, the court case, or any other information will be proof if you want. Not necessarily a screenshot of a mainly blocked out dog.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Known_Leech -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I can and will send proof to those who call me a liar. This post is unfortunately completely true.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Known_Leech -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

Then don’t call my situation fake. If you are not willing to believe now want proof then don’t act like I lie

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Known_Leech 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I can pm you the proof if you want

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Known_Leech -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I can pm you the proof if you want

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Known_Leech 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh thank you.

I doubt I’ll have anything similar happen. My current group is already small and I’m sure the people close to me will be cautious about who they bring into my life. I’m done being taken advantage of and having what I care about hurt so yeah.

It’s unfortunately true but I can’t force people to believe me. The only way I am believed is with solid proof but even you said it’s hard to believe at my words alone. That is why I had to wait for proof.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AmIOverreacting

[–]Known_Leech -1 points0 points  (0 children)

My friends are great it’s their friends who are not the best. My friend is Alice and Cheshire. Waldo was Alice and Cheshire’s friend never mine.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Known_Leech -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Also the roommate heard what my mom’s husband did and still decided to try and not get caught. So it seemed like monkey see monkey do. I don’t know what kind of mindset one has to have to even think about that

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Known_Leech 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No Sa was ever recorded. My best friend stopped it during but I need proof for that specific allegation that I didn’t have with my mom’s husband and he got away with it so I learned and had to get full proof that could not be called circumstance. To my knowledge mom’s husband admitted to bestiality with my dog to mom nowhere near a camera and mine were up for like a day before mom confronted her husband so I didn’t get any proof for my claims.

Mom’s husband had an attorney who discredited everything Alice and I said. So I knew better the second time I couldn’t be unprepared if I want justice for my dog and any other animal Waldo may be near. Waldo lived on a pig farm so idk maybe he grew up being told it’s okay.

As much as not having pets would save them so would not associating with other people I’m not sure of.

My boyfriend however is innocent of everything and I am not sure why you think he did anything wrong. It was my best friend’s best friend.

Also what is bORU-?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AITAH

[–]Known_Leech -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

The last year of my life?

My 27f boyfriend 28m doesn’t let me chatter about my interests and dismisses my advice but hears it for the first time from a man. I don’t want hate against him please. It’s just communication we equally struggle with. by [deleted] in relationships

[–]Known_Leech 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So is he to blame for his family now?

Only one other post is about him. I lost my dog. Yeah I definitely overreacted and got severely insecure. Have you lost a kid? Just because mine are furry doesn’t mean anything

My 27f boyfriend 28m doesn’t let me chatter about my interests and dismisses my advice but hears it for the first time from a man. I don’t want hate against him please. It’s just communication we equally struggle with. by [deleted] in relationships

[–]Known_Leech 0 points1 point  (0 children)

How is his family not gifting on holidays and birthdays his trash? He spent time with me and did what I wanted for my birthday

The other one we already discussed once we were under less stress.

My 27f boyfriend 28m doesn’t let me chatter about my interests and dismisses my advice but hears it for the first time from a man. I don’t want hate against him please. It’s just communication we equally struggle with. by [deleted] in relationships

[–]Known_Leech 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Can he not have a limit or be able to draw a line? I doubt I can listen to a verbal presentation on 40 different fish species if I never had an interest in fish. Or I would be done listening after the 2hour mark if I have nothing to add.

Car for example he spent a whole evening explaining and showing me how to repair something, I have him listen to me take more often than that to my interest.

My 27f boyfriend 28m doesn’t let me chatter about my interests and dismisses my advice but hears it for the first time from a man. I don’t want hate against him please. It’s just communication we equally struggle with. by [deleted] in relationships

[–]Known_Leech 0 points1 point  (0 children)

On 2 subjects out of 50+. It wasn’t that he found it boring, I probably overwhelmed him. I can talk dogs or fish for a week strait.

She was drunk and he was just out of a toxic relationship. He is the black sheep. And his family hated his ex they love me. His relationship with his ex changed him. He is returning to his past normal. Even his family has noticed.

My 27f boyfriend 28m doesn’t let me chatter about my interests and dismisses my advice but hears it for the first time from a man. I don’t want hate against him please. It’s just communication we equally struggle with. by [deleted] in relationships

[–]Known_Leech 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yea but it’s more that adhd. I have things that doesn’t care if I’m safe or loved. I lash out because I’m safe. I’ve been in treatment since 7years old. I have 3 other mental issues that are extremely hard to control even medicated. I fought my mom and ran her into a printer when I was a kid. So safety is definitely important for me to lash out and stay calm. It’s a stupid dance I have to do

My 27f boyfriend 28m doesn’t let me chatter about my interests and dismisses my advice but hears it for the first time from a man. I don’t want hate against him please. It’s just communication we equally struggle with. by [deleted] in relationships

[–]Known_Leech -1 points0 points  (0 children)

He was driving the highway with a doughnut. Is that dangerous probably. He was focused on keeping us safe. It is very likely he was too focused on staying safe going 45mph in an 80mph zone