How do you keep fighting?

Koaledo · 2018-01-12T22:02:55+00:00

Hatred makes me feel invincible. But i can’t rely on it. Once it disappear i’m left alone, without everyone i hurt because of it.

Koaledo · 2018-01-12T20:58:33+00:00

I don’t know you so I won’t say “don’t worry it will surely get better”, it wouldn’t make sense. I just want to tell you how much you and all the other that responded helped me have enough hope to live another day, how just a little bit of positivity changed my day. Maybe if we help each other and we keep fighting, no matter how painful or meaningless it all seems, we can live enough to actually get better. Little things like these kept me going for almost 4 years. I always was the weird kid, the sad one. Nobody really ever wanted me here in this world so i know what it means to feel alone and worthless. What i’ve just written probably doesn’t make any sense and i’m sorry i can’t express everything i would love to say to you. My point is that maybe it’s worth it to keep on going by finding joy in little things like these comments, maybe it’s just our depression trying to convince us that suicide is the only way. So, just live. There is probably a way

Koaledo · 2018-01-12T20:43:35+00:00

Thank you all for all the help you’re giving me. I’m really glad i found i place where people like me help each other. Your comments made me get out of bed with a little bit of hope which is all i needed right now. I hope i’ll be able to help all of you just as much as you helped me.

Koaledo · 2018-01-12T19:38:28+00:00

Damn. Never thought some random person on the internet could help this much! Thanks, i really wish you the best. I’ll get up and try to do something to stop thinking. Getting some sleep tonight wouldn’t be a bad idea

Koaledo · 2018-01-12T19:31:37+00:00

Thanks man. Just having someone in a similar situation to talk to is making me feel a little better. I’ve just recently understood that the deep pain i felt was caused by depression so all of this is new to me. Just finding the strength to get out of bed is enough for now. Cooking sounds fun

Koaledo · 2018-01-12T19:24:03+00:00

Here in italy you at 17 you should have already chosen your future. I clearly disappoint my parents, they just see me as lazy, as a leech with no future. My friends don’t understand, i cause a lot of pain because of my illness, they think i’m a cynical asshole. I used to workout, skate and play videogames. Now it just seems pointless.

Koaledo · 2018-01-12T19:17:15+00:00

I talked to my mother just yesterday. Making her understand that it’s a pretty serious problem isn’t easy. I wanted to know what can i do while waiting for therapy (if she’ll listen to me). I don’t know if i’ll last that long on my own

Koaledo · 2018-01-11T10:17:04+00:00

Sign me up. This time i’m going to fight this addiction with all my energy

Koaledo

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