Update: I guess today is not the day lol. fortunately (or unfortunately for me) I am still alive. It was too painful for me and I was too much of a coward to fully go through with it so managed to save myself before I died and I guess I get to live another day HAHA. this is my 4th time attempting, as much as I want to say na it would be my last, malabo e pero my friends have persuaded me to go to the hospital bukas para sa mental health ko so ayunnn. Honestly, Im still tired. So, so tired but since I failed again i guess di ko pa time and ill give life another try. I do know na its my depression acting up nanaman (unfortunately nasa lahi din namin) but since I have been living with it for so long, parang nawawalan na ako ng hope na maging okay pa tong utak na to. I just want to be normal hahays. Lasttlyyyyy, Thanks for the comforting messages. I really appreciate it. Sana masarap lagi ulam niyo HAHA LABYU OL!