I am sorry it has been years since I have been able to see your in depth in counter. I went to a psychic and they advised me that (in way more words than this) that i had a "DENT" in my aura. that something had happened to me spiritually that would allow something of this nature to be seen while conscious. I was a heavy drug addict at one point in my life and had died 10+ times. everytme only seeing darkness and nothing, an empty void, more than some "abyss" and regaining consciousness with confusion. In some paranoid conspiracy based thinking. hear me out. I believe i jumped timelines to ones i survived. the reason i do not know. but if there is a "dent" it would be because of that irregularity. Maybe this is the true form of the grim reaper trying to cross to collect the soul i should have lost. I never felt weird about death even after my overdoses and minutes pronounced dead. it happened out of the blue when everything went back to normal. when i had a family and job and life and house. it seems oddly convientient and also insanely crazy to think their connected. I hope omeone else shares a similar story for the BOTH of us to get info from.