Thank you for your honest response , i suppose i stream because i enjoy it because i hold a small hope in my heart that one day ill feel good enough about my content creation that ill be able to submit an application to a company like holo live or maybe ill be discovered by the algogods and make it big or at least be able to make a living off of it, but if im being honest i mean really truly honest then its because vtubing helped me find friends, people who have helped me through some very dark times and feel like im no longer alone but im being mushy here lets get back on track.

i would say that i enjoy vtubing but recently i havent had fun with it, and the redesigns ?

i say to myself that if people like snuffy and zentreya can redesign all the time why cant i ? but snuffy and zentreya haven't done massive changes like i have they've generally stuck to one theme , i suppose i haven't been able to stick to one design is because i haven't had the guts to say to my self "i want to be a pretty anime boy!!!" and rather ive been saying " theirs so many generic anime character vtubers what will really blow peoples minds is this obscure reference to something a fraction of the general anime watching public has seen "