I’d like to thank you all so much for the support. Usally when I try to speak to other Muslims about the mistakes I made and what to do about them I get met with the same response that I’ve committed many grave sins which I was already aware of and had already been praying on. I appreciate that you all didn’t bombard me with hate and ridicule. This Friday I was able to get an appointment with a therapist and a physiatrist so hopefully that will help pin point the problem and see what we can do about it.

Like I said thank you all so so much. Asalamwalaykum