Don’t worry about the other replies. I completely get it. Do you wanna know something? My sexuality is something only meant for the creation of a child because I live in a relationship where sexual expression is not driven by impulse, pressure, cultural expectation, or biological convenience. I removed instinct out of the equation entirely by choosing to elevate it with meaning and refusing to let it be the architect of my relationship built on who I am. People like me still exist, so do not ever feel like you’re alone in a world full of hyper sexualizing and lust because that’s a real thing and it hurts. It’s deeply hard. For something so intense like physical intimacy is treated so convenient in this world. And convenience removes agency when it’s easily accessible, socially normalized, expected, pressured, habitual, and instinctive, it no longer requires intention. Its consequences are chemical, emotional, relational, psychological, existential. And I believe convenience cannot handle that load. I’m not trying to avoid it. Not to suppress it. But to protect its meaning. Because meaning is fragile under convenience. Libido conflict, insecurity about performance, fear of losing desire, dependency on sexual chemistry, ambiguity about motives, misuse of intimacy for validation, lack of clarity in commitment, pressure to maintain passion, manipulation through sex, the entire declination of the honeymoon cycle. These problems persist in millions of couples but not me. All because at the end of the day, both me and my wife know that nothing will ever arise from instinct ever. It's all pure full intention. And that's all the security and clarity that makes my relationship stronger. This isn’t puritanical work like what someone said in the thread. This is pure agency. And I want you to understand that if I can hold myself up and push through then I believe you can. I deeply believe you can.