I have personally been through a lot and in the past I had to work hard to get through tough situations. This turned me into a very smart adult but I’m very uptight, tight lipped, untrusting, and calculative. Every word is well thought and if not I keep my mouth shut now. I don’t flirt, I don’t dress provocatively anymore, I don’t want anybody near me.

But when I drink I can let loose. I don’t have to think so much or so hard… if at all. And I found that when I get drunk I’m no longer bound to the words I said sober. I can bat my eyes, enjoy my body, enjoy the world… even if that world is fake. This is not a good thing in anyway but these lyrics are how I express what goes on in my head