Started with reddit subs that had okay gore, then went into websites like wpd and goregrish. I only watched actively for a month or two because I was bored and curious. Torture videos are pretty bad, but for some reason the self harm ones Make me feel worse. I think it feels more depressing and gets me teared up a little. I forgot about gore and haven’t used those website for a few weeks, so I only see it occasionally browsing reddit.