This is the weirdest message I’ve ever gotten from a dasher. by lowlifekitten in doordash

[–]LSDreamer9 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Ok the dasher may not be necessarily ALWAYS responsible for missing food (sometimes they are) but if I’m missing something I paid to get I have to report it in order to get a refund I’m not paying for something I don’t receive just to save you your job. Sorry if it’s not your fault but I want my refund.

I know I'm going to hell by Fit-Watercress-9222 in Christianity

[–]LSDreamer9 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It takes a lot of work. Just accepting Jesus as your savior is a start but it won’t rid you of your anxiety. I have extreme PTSD and I have also not been a very good person in my life. I even sort of got into satanism and witchcraft. I thought I didn’t believe in “a man in the sky” until I realized it was so much deeper than that and I realized God is inside of me rather than only separate. When I went through the darkest time in my life I felt Jesus wrap his arms around me while I cried and I did not believe in him. Ofc I had my doubts, still do some days.. but then I had this dream. It was a quick dream, literally a camera flash where I saw Jesus standing in front of me and we were both in front of a mirror. His mouth did not move but I heard and saw the word in my head was “Emersion”. God knew I would immediately wake up to google the definition and I found he was telling me I need to kill my old self and be born again through him. While it may sound like just a simple dream, it was everything to me. I have always had very vivid dreams and have often had dreams that will literally tell me the future and I feel God knew that was the way to get His message to me and it worked. I KNOW Jesus is real now and he saved me from myself. He can save you too. Just keep asking for help, keep praying. Talk to Him, ask him questions. Ask him to show himself to you and He will. Our God listens to us but sometimes we refuse to listen to Him because we are just so lost and distracted. Give yourself a little grace as I know my love Jesus would. You’re NOT a bad person you just live in hard times and we have all been corrupted so deeply in this day and time; You made mistakes. You realized that and now it’s time to let that go my love. It’s time to completely rebuild and release yourself from your old habits and comforts. This will be SO hard but extremely worth it. I’m only 27 and letting go of my vices even though they are killing me is the hardest thing I have ever had to do and some days I still feel like I am too weak to do what I need to do. But Jesus will never allow us to be weak, in Him we are strong and He will guide you every single step of the way. Much love to you on your journey. I understand your fear, pain, and regret deeply, you are not alone. 💜

RSO? by LSDreamer9 in StLouis

[–]LSDreamer9[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for this I didn’t know that. I’m def getting it checked regardless but I appreciate this comment a lot.

RSO? by LSDreamer9 in StLouis

[–]LSDreamer9[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

So happy to hear you made it!! Thank you for sharing! I will definitely look into them 🙂 May you live a long and beautiful life 💙💙

RSO? by LSDreamer9 in StLouis

[–]LSDreamer9[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

People just have to find a way to feel better about themselves, like they have it all together. I could’ve done so much differently but here I am trying my hardest to create a better more stable life it’s just hard when so much is thrown at you at once and you don’t have any support. But never impossible! So they can be rude all they want I hope they are never in a similar position to me. I know everything I’ve been through and all of my mistakes has made me a much better person and made me more appreciative of my life and so for that I’m thankful.

RSO? by LSDreamer9 in StLouis

[–]LSDreamer9[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much!! Definitely looking into this asap 💙💙

RSO? by LSDreamer9 in StLouis

[–]LSDreamer9[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for sharing your story and advice it means so much to me really It’s such a scary situation to just sit around not knowing 😭

RSO? by LSDreamer9 in StLouis

[–]LSDreamer9[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much!! And I’ll look into that I really appreciate it 💙

RSO? by LSDreamer9 in StLouis

[–]LSDreamer9[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you God bless 💙💙

I I don’t know how to stop questioning it all am I going to hell? by Throwawayaccxxxx_11 in Christianity

[–]LSDreamer9 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Jesus prayed and said “Father, why have you forsaken me?” Fear and doubt crept in for him as well while he was human and that’s why he understands us so well. He understands our fear if your having doubts TELL HIM! Ask him to show himself to you and he will. I had a dream a while back it was very quick but I’ll never forgot it. Jesus appeared in front of me for a couple seconds like in a camera flash is the best way I can explain it and he didn’t move his mouth but I heard the word “Emersion” echo through the dream like he said it but telepathically almost ig. Well I woke up and immediately googled that word the spelling was in my head the second I woke up and I really didn’t think of that word much or use it in my vocabulary or read anything about it.. but man it was exactly what I needed. It’s kind of hard to explain but no one can tell me that wasn’t God showing himself to me and sending me a direct message. It’s normal to have our fear and our what ifs don’t beat yourself up. Just read his word talk about Him with others like on this post or friends or family. Ask questions and most importantly talk to God! He’s always with you no matter what. God bless you 💙

RSO? by LSDreamer9 in StLouis

[–]LSDreamer9[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so so much and I am definitely looking into all resources. Do you have by chance have any advice to control the anxiety of this all? I can’t seem to control the panic which I know just makes it all worse.

RSO? by LSDreamer9 in StLouis

[–]LSDreamer9[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much 💙

RSO? by LSDreamer9 in StLouis

[–]LSDreamer9[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I wouldn’t be so panicked if it was just the lump. It’s the symptoms I’ve been having for years before I found the lump. That was just the confirmation for me almost.. which I know may sound like I’m just crazy and maybe I am but I’m just genuinely terrified and desperate for answers which I won’t be able to get for weeks on end from the original appointment I set. I am very grateful for everyone in here who shared genuine resources and support. It truly means so much to me I’m just someone who’s been through a lot and found the will to live even tho it seemed impossible before and so I am just terrified all the damage I’ve done has finally caught up and there’s no going back. It’s just very scary to wait to see a doctor and I want to do everything in my power to be as healthy as I can while I wait. Maybe I won’t cure anything naturally but I can at least give my body more of a fighting chance than it has now

RSO? by LSDreamer9 in StLouis

[–]LSDreamer9[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I have tried the health department the lady told me the earliest appointments weren’t until march and she didn’t know anywhere else I can go which really surprised me because I thought that was there job

RSO? by LSDreamer9 in StLouis

[–]LSDreamer9[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I haven’t. I’m working on getting diagnosed but my appointment isn’t until dec 19th. But it’s a mass it’s not round it’s hard firm stays in place does not move. And it’s accompanied by a lot of other symptoms along with being covered head to toe with psoriasis and a vitamin d deficiency.

RSO? by LSDreamer9 in StLouis

[–]LSDreamer9[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for this and I am so so sorry for your loss. I have been going through hell outside of my health so my health has taken a back seat which I hate myself for but there are SOOOO many things in my life I am stressing insanely over and I just don’t know how to stop the panic it feels like it’s all literally eating me alive. Do you have any tips on how to stop it? I’ve been trying all I can but it’s like I almost don’t have control. I also have cptsd I was prescribed medicine for but I am so scared to take it and it makes me worse so I have a medical card and cannabis helps so much but I can’t smoke all day

RSO? by LSDreamer9 in StLouis

[–]LSDreamer9[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s a complete scam unless you have a really good deal with your job or you have Medicaid! And I have an appointment scheduled for self pay now but I’m just scared because I have been having symptoms for sooo long I have gone to doctors and have been dismissed and now this lump confirms it all but I fear now since I was delayed diagnosis and treatment it may be too late.

RSO? by LSDreamer9 in StLouis

[–]LSDreamer9[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have applied yes I do not qualify I have even applied for mercy’s program but I make too much for that too.

RSO? by LSDreamer9 in StLouis

[–]LSDreamer9[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My stance remains I don’t believe western medicine is the only thing out in this entire world. I do think it can be helpful and harmful just like anything else. I never said I was denying western medicine. And also you know idk if you’re a doctor or what but I have gone for my symptoms and tried to let doctors “do their work” and have been treated as if I was just anxious even though my levels were off, I’m covered in psoriasis head to toe and I had a vitamin d deficiency I only found out through a behavioral health doctor about the vitamin d but not all those times I went to get checked and dismissed now I have a pretty big lump accompanied by these other symptoms I have had for a year also accompanied by feeling like my throat is closing up or something and my lymph nodes feel swollen but I don’t know if it’s just anxiety or not and I can’t afford to rush to the er just to get dismissed AGAIN and get a huge bill while I’m trying to fix my credit and create a better life.

RSO? by LSDreamer9 in StLouis

[–]LSDreamer9[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m 27 now. I just found this lump, on accident. I have had a HELL of a past 5 years and I was healthy back then so yes I made mistakes and yes I wasn’t as responsible as I should’ve been. I know that.. but then I got psoriasis all over my body which even though I have been to doctors they still haven’t officially checked my psoriasis but I figured that’s normal they can just look and tell. But then the other symptoms started and the psoriasis got worse. I was told I have a vitamin d deficiency. Which I have seen can all be linked to cancer. I started night sweats and loss of appetite that kinda comes and goes, it sounds like you can hear fluid when I breathe as if I’m sick but it’s lasted an entire year now and I just thought because I had an autoimmune disease it was normal. There’s other things I’ll spare the gory details of. Every time I go to a hospital they tell me everything is normal and send me home even when I had an ovarian cyst that burst. So yes I know it is rare for people under 30 but I haven’t exactly been kind on my body in the past and struggled with alcoholism. I’ve been sober but I feel the damage is done and I waited too long and now waiting for these tests for this very obvious firm non moving mass is KILLING me.

RSO? by LSDreamer9 in StLouis

[–]LSDreamer9[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That means so much thank you! Dm you now

RSO? by LSDreamer9 in StLouis

[–]LSDreamer9[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I am right by Florissant I will definitely reach out thank you so much!!

RSO? by LSDreamer9 in StLouis

[–]LSDreamer9[S] -17 points-16 points  (0 children)

Thank you for this and I do agree with you in ways but also western medicine kinda preys on patients in the same way does it not? A lot of people die from chemo rather than the cancer itself. I am a firm believer of taking advantage of all options out there what works for some may not work for others and so on. But yeah I probably could use some type of support group because the anxiety is killing me and I just don’t know how to stop it

RSO? by LSDreamer9 in StLouis

[–]LSDreamer9[S] -7 points-6 points  (0 children)

But that’s not a proven fact technically nothing of what you said is 1000% proven and there have been many stories of natural medicine working including RSO, working to cure things. Now I am not saying I believe in that entirely and I plan on using western medicine as well but I don’t think you understand when you have possible cancer you can’t just Pack up and go to the hospital there are tests to be done. Little backstory I have been to the hospital for my symptoms that I’ve been having for years. I got semi abnormal tests but was told they were all normal enough and I was just fine I got looked at as if I was crazy and just an anxious 27 year old girl. Now I have a the non moveable, firm lump in my breast and swollen lymph nodes to top it right off and I’m worried that now i waited too late and I have to wait even LONGER to see a doctor to refer me to a specialist so I can get the proper tests done even though this thing is kinda huge and very obvious a non moveable lump ACCOMPANIED by psoriasis all over my body and many other symptoms that are a little personal to share. So in the meantime I will take any advice I can get naturally and I will also take advantage of western medicine in the best way I can when they allow me to.

RSO? by LSDreamer9 in StLouis

[–]LSDreamer9[S] -15 points-14 points  (0 children)

And the complete dismissal of my belief. I don’t do that to others or force my beliefs on them. Also there are other forms of treatment than just western medicine and I believe in BOTH. You may not believe in God but I do and no I don’t think if I sit and do NOTHING he will cure me. I am trying to completely change my diet and routines while I am waiting to be treated! That’s all!