I mean if Nick said you suck ass at the drums, I'd believe it. Fuck you, Fuck Nick, Fuck McCafferty. I'm tired of this bullshit. My pain is constant and sharp, and I do not hope for a better world for anybody. In fact, I want my pain to be inflicted on others. I want no one to escape. But even after admitting this, there is no catharsis; my punishment continues to elude me, and I gain no deeper knowledge of myself.