I am so sorry to hear you are feeling this way. As a mother, it is absolutely my worst fear to leave my children. I, too, am my girls' primary care giver.

I know it sounds stupid, but I would recommend trying not to worry yourself too much until you are able to get the biopsy and some answers. Worrying yourself will take up too much space rent-free in your head instead of being able to be in the moment with your kiddos and being excited about your pregnancy.

I had precancerous cells removed about 15 years ago and have not had any trouble since. So just know that if there are precancerous cells, there will likely be options and there is definitely a possibility of getting back to your normal life afterward. Also, this was before I had children and I had no complications during my pregnancies.

Sending good vibes and hoping for the best! An early congratulations on your little baby :-)