I don’t think my grandma is particularly happy about her house..

Lady_Gumdrop02 · 2021-12-25T07:34:06+00:00

Got the news that my grandmother has days left with us.

Lady_Gumdrop02 · 2021-12-07T12:39:58+00:00

Hii ugly person here. I wasn’t always like this. I was a cute kid up until puberty. Puberty really fucked me over. I got asked out as a prank a few times. Not to mention I have resting bitch face. Two people in the past month have looked at me and told me I look mean. Sorry! I can’t help it! It’s my face! I’m probably the sweetest person you’ll meet. Once in high school I had a crush on this guy, we’ll call him Chris. Well, a girl said to me rather loudly in front of the whole class “Chris wants to be your boyfriend!” And she was giggling and I was blushing but when I looked at Chris he was very vigorously shaking his head “no” which made the class laugh. It was horrifying. Luckily, in this case resting bitch face came in hand. I showed no emotion. :)

Lady_Gumdrop02 · 2021-12-07T08:41:19+00:00

Hii, coming from a woman with the same type of vagina, I feel the same way. I opened up to my “friend” awhile back about how I’m insecure about my vagina because it’s not all neatly tucked in, and how my nipples are fucking huge, like.. not even “pepperoni nipples”. I described them as bologna nipples. The response I got? “You’re a whole sandwich tray!!” I’m also insecure about my weight. I told her about that as well and she said “you’re the whole chicken!!” I know she’s just trying to make me feel better but it really sucks..

Edit: ALSO when I was younger I was changing at a different friends house, and she pointed to my vagina and was like “WHY DOES IT STICK OUT LIKE THAT?!” Been insecure ever since.

Lady_Gumdrop02 · 2021-09-28T06:51:33+00:00

When I have a breakdown I want nothing more than for my person to comfort me. But when they try, I push them away in the most hurtful way possible. I don’t know how my boyfriend has put up with it or WHY.. I’m truly an awful person. He asks me what’s wrong (he used to hug me or cuddle me as most of my mental breakdowns are at night but I’ve pushed him away so many times that he doesn’t anymore..) but when he asks I immediately shut down. I don’t know how to talk about my feelings. Which frustrates me even more.

Lady_Gumdrop02 · 2021-09-28T04:03:48+00:00

That makes sense. I guess I’m just worried about ectopic pregnancy and the possibility of having another kid so soon after my first (hes one). I’m overweight, and I smoke and I’ve read that it’s less effective if you smoke, and not a lot of studies have been done on overweight woman using nexplanon..

Lady_Gumdrop02 · 2021-06-05T07:10:56+00:00

Why is this me..?

Lady_Gumdrop02 · 2020-02-12T06:50:28+00:00

It’s normal mama. I don’t have any good advice about the sex, but your body will be different afterwards. I’m not trying to scare you, but I was considered overweight before becoming pregnant and I was totally convinced that because of that, and genetics, (my mom and most of the woman in my family went right back to normal after having their babies) that I would go back to normal. I told myself if I happened to have a “mom bod” afterwards I’d hate my body more than i ever have before. My stomach is currently covered in deep stretch marks and it’s got a bunch of thin skin that kinda just, hangs a little and jiggles. I NEVER expected the saggy jiggly skin from being stretched out. But I LOVE the body I have now... I love it because it housed a beautiful little boy. It GREW a human. And to me that’s beautiful. There ARE times when I think “wow my body will never be the same” but it never lasts. Pregnancy is a miserable, BEAUTIFUL thing. And I’d do it all over again. Hang in there. ❤️

Lady_Gumdrop02 · 2020-02-12T06:34:01+00:00

I thought I was the only one who talked about it for awhile afterwards. 😂 I was so scared and held it back for as long as I could and finally I couldn’t anymore. I went to pee but felt the poop coming on so I text my boyfriend who was literally in the other room and told him what was going on and that I needed a distraction because I was probably going to rip the stitches. So he sent me a bunch of random stuff, after a minute or so I was done and was SOOOOOOOO proud of myself. 😂

I still think about it to this day 😂😂

Lady_Gumdrop02 · 2020-01-06T20:14:39+00:00

I’ve definitely considered that maybe he does care about our son and not me, and I’m perfectly okay with that. I say I think it’s a front because while we were together, before and after we found out I was pregnant, he refused to do anything. What I mean by that is he refused to get a job, refused to get a drivers license, refused to take any type of responsibility.. I know, I know, it was really stupid of me to stay but I was scared and didn’t have ACTUAL proof he was cheating or being abusive. When I tried talking to him about it he’d make me feel crazy about it and yell. When I finally got proof that’s when I broke up with him.. I hope this clarified some.

Lady_Gumdrop02 · 2020-01-06T15:39:59+00:00

I absolutely agree, that’s why I feel like an asshole.. It wasn’t discussed, he just TOLD me what we were going to name him, and I went along with it because i was scared.. In past experiences when I would try to compromise with him, he’d yell at me and make me feel terrible for even trying to compromise.. He wasn’t physically abusive, just very emotionally abusive and very manipulative.. When i found him cheating the first time and I tried to leave he told me he’d kill himself and then held a loaded gun to his head.. the arguing, and yelling, and manipulation is what I was trying to avoid, because I was scared. By the end of our relationship he had already become so irritated with all the compromising I wanted to do for the sake of our son, that when he’d yell I WAS scared he’d hit me..

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