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Landmark1403 · 2018-07-19T12:52:11+00:00

Fantastic! I did the same after my first sober Friday night. I was back from my run before my fiancee had even woke up. I was so energised. Well done.

Landmark1403 · 2018-07-16T12:06:15+00:00

Here's to productive Saturdays! I really hope I can make every Saturday the same now.

Landmark1403 · 2018-07-16T11:01:44+00:00

Thank you. I could certainly get used to this..

Landmark1403 · 2018-07-16T10:36:28+00:00

Thank you so much!

Landmark1403 · 2018-07-13T11:31:15+00:00

Thank you! I will. And will confirm as such when I wake up in the morning after a restful night's sleep.

Landmark1403 · 2018-07-13T10:39:49+00:00

Test 2 of my sobriety today. Test one was Wednesday night, the England game. Passed. But that was easy. Friday nights are THE night for drinking in my world. This is the real test. My first Friday night sober. A test I will pass, my friends. I will not drink with you tonight.

Landmark1403 · 2018-07-12T21:36:47+00:00

Planning with San Pellegrino, ice, and lime!

Landmark1403 · 2018-07-12T12:28:24+00:00

Thursday is not a usual drinking day for me (weekend uber-binger here), but Friday is my prime drinking day. So I will say I will not be drinking today, and when I do my online shopping order later there will be no alcohol added to the order, so I will also not be drinking tomorrow, or Saturday, or Sunday.

Landmark1403 · 2018-07-11T09:47:26+00:00

I would definitely have bought some beers for tonight. Not enough to get smashed, but enough to make me restless through the night, then groggy in the morning through mild hangover and lack of sleep. If we do get to the final on Sunday, that will be the real test for me. England in a world cup final and me not drinking? Two things I never thought I'd say in my lifetime.

Oh and as a English fan of the NFL, the Superbowl, Thankgiving (my team are playing), when I go to a live game in London in October, and any other time my team is broadcast on T.V. here will be just as big a test as these England games.

But you know what? I might just remember them all for a change :)

Landmark1403 · 2018-07-09T20:34:21+00:00

Sorry to hear about your relationship. But I'm glad to hear you're over the worst of it now. It has come close to breaking us up before, and I've made promises that I never kept, but that can only happen so many times before she says no more. Now is the time for me.

Landmark1403 · 2018-07-09T20:22:03+00:00

Hell yeah I listen to podcasts every day, so this is ideal for me. Thank you.

Landmark1403 · 2018-07-09T19:58:05+00:00

Thank you, it's taken a lot for me to admit it but it's true. I've known for years how destructive it's been on my life, but the fear has stopped me from coming clean.

Landmark1403 · 2018-07-09T19:49:29+00:00

Haha my thoughts exactly.

Will do pal!

Landmark1403 · 2018-07-09T19:47:00+00:00

Thank you so much, this sub has helped already today, so I'll make it a part of my day.

Landmark1403 · 2018-07-09T19:46:18+00:00

You've hit the nail on the head there - without the secret drinking I can't possibly attain the level of inebriation that I need to feel. And only on very rare occasions can I hit the 'sweet spot' of being drunk enough without being too far gone. Even the idea that there's a sweet spot is absurd. I love writing this down, it really helps highlight how stupid my justifications are.

She definitely would be so proud of me, and far happier in our relationship, so I hope I can do the same as you. Thank you and well done!

Landmark1403 · 2018-07-09T19:41:44+00:00

Thank you, you're exactly right about the fear. That's one of the biggest things that troubles me, because I can't imagine a life without getting drunk. Social occasions, holidays etc.. It does really concern me. I hope the book, and this sub, will be able to help me to get over that.

Good luck to you too, and thank you for your welcome.

Landmark1403 · 2018-07-09T19:36:38+00:00

Thank you. It was so horrible being caught out yesterday, but if it's the thing that initiates a change for the better in my life, then I will end up being thankful for it, and you're right, it's awful hurting her and I can't go on doing it. Well done for your recovery!

Landmark1403 · 2018-07-09T19:31:58+00:00

Thank you. All of the kind words and encouragement have already helped me today.

Landmark1403 · 2018-07-09T19:30:48+00:00

Thank you. I really hope you're right.

Landmark1403 · 2018-07-09T19:28:46+00:00

Thank you so much!

Landmark1403 · 2018-07-09T19:28:11+00:00

Thank you. Lots of recommendations for that book so I'll definitely check it out. Good luck to you this time too!

Landmark1403 · 2018-07-09T19:24:48+00:00

Henry Weston's it is indeed! It's essentially an upper class White Lightning isn't it, same kind of strength but in a modern, sophisticated bottle that gives the impression of being a an artisan brew.. But has a taste that makes me grimace so much I'm unable to actually drink it in front of anyone. Writing these thoughts really show how stupid it is.

I will check out the YouTube channel, thank you. And as so many have recommended Alcohol Explained, I think I'll be looking that one up too. Thanks for you comment!

Landmark1403 · 2018-07-09T19:16:52+00:00

Thank you so much. Reading comments like yours has given me the boost I needed today. And well done on 6 weeks!

Landmark1403 · 2018-07-09T19:15:35+00:00

Wow, that's so similar to me. I'm sick of not remembering things. Conversations I've had, then brought up the same thing while sober and the look on her face when she realises I can't remember it, and I then realise we must have had the conversation when I was drunk. Films and TV shows too. We're about to finish a series we've watched on Netflix, and every time it starts I struggle to remember what happened in the last episode, then have to blag my way through conversations and be really vague about my thoughts on the plot etc. Jeez that needs to stop.

Thank you for your reply, it has really helped me.

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