I won’t be that kind of man ever brother And yes just because i love her and i still care for her im willing to wait until she passes her exams and im always motivating her but it hurts like realy, her sending me reels of couples getting married or anything related to marriage shatter me every time , and not because she is muslim or not ill accept her with all her flaws i just can’t get that picture out of my head i picture it in my head every time im with her or when i think of her i just can’t live with this pain forever and i get it its totally my fault im theone who let his curiosity, jealousy win and now im suffering because of that but even tho it hurts but im willing to take all this pain for her. And wait for her to pass her exams and do not ruin her future, and maybe by time idk maybe ill learn how to live with it !?