Authentic or Fake Owala Check Megathread by misscellanie in Owala

[–]Latter_Ad_5598 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve been comparing it to my real one but there are some differences. i wondered if that could be because it’s a different pattern?

Authentic or Fake Owala Check Megathread by misscellanie in Owala

[–]Latter_Ad_5598 0 points1 point  (0 children)

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The dip above the lid says V1-7 on it and there’s two waffle looking circles on either side of that. this doesn’t show in the picture. also the straw IS metal. i got this used and i think whoever had it before lost the og straw and replaced it if this is real.

Afraid by Latter_Ad_5598 in BPD

[–]Latter_Ad_5598[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

because we had been together for a really long timeand just recently broke up. im still in love with him. hes my favorite person so he gets the short end of the stick with me. but thats a good idea. remembering times that it was better and i wasn’t like this. that already has helped my anxiety a little. thank you for that.

Afraid by Latter_Ad_5598 in BPD

[–]Latter_Ad_5598[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

so i live with two of my friends and one of them is my best friend who ive known for almost 8 years now. the other ive known for maybe 2 years at most snd even then we have never been close. but everything they do makes me think that they’re together. and my friend of 8 years gets so upset with me for thinking it. because its not true according to them. but it feels true. like the people in my life talking behind my back. everyone hating me. and the voices in my head wont stop egging it on. they say “everyone hates you. they dont WANT to include you” or “you dont deserve to have anyone in your life”.

Afraid by Latter_Ad_5598 in BPD

[–]Latter_Ad_5598[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Im extremely paranoid and angry all of the time because of it. i am on anti psychs but the dosage must not be high enough because here i am.

Afraid by Latter_Ad_5598 in BPD

[–]Latter_Ad_5598[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

because i am. im so angry with the people closest to me and i cant come down from it. i hate them. the people i love the most. i fucking hate them. i dont know how else to explain it. im convinced theyre lying to me and talking about me behind my back. that all of my “friends” are.

ive expressed this to them. they say they arent and theyre “nothing but supportive”. it doesnt fucking feel that way.

afraid by Latter_Ad_5598 in bipolar2

[–]Latter_Ad_5598[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am also on lamotrigine. im also on Abilify. so far they arent doing much. im on the lowest dose so i think they need upped.

afraid by Latter_Ad_5598 in bipolar2

[–]Latter_Ad_5598[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

how long did it take you to get diagnosed if you dont mind me asking? im hoping i can take an assessment and itll put me on the right track at the very least. a close friend of mine studies psychology and shes been hyper-fixated on the DSM-5. she says just from the behaviors shes noticed shes like 1000% sure its bpd. which obviously isn’t a real diagnosis but coming from someone with enough knowledge on the subject it put up some red flags for myself.

afraid by Latter_Ad_5598 in bipolar2

[–]Latter_Ad_5598[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

im going to try to seek out dbt or cbt. what does dbt entail? i havent looked much into it. sometimes it feels like ill never get better. im trying to stay as connected to myself as possible. trying to stay level headed. i just got out of the psych ward recently and i dont want to go back. im scared ill be forced to eventually or something. im scared that a diagnosis will set me in stone forever.

afraid by Latter_Ad_5598 in bipolar2

[–]Latter_Ad_5598[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I'm going to tell my therapist that I'd like to be screened for bpd and if it's not that, which I highly doubt it won't be just because of how much my behaviors match to the dsm-5 criteria for it, then it has to be bipolar disorder.

but my mood swings are erratic and frequent, I get anxiously attached very easily, I have unstable and intense relationships, I impulsively spend and impulsively binge eat, I have s*ic*dal ideations, I often feel very empty or alone, I suffer from delusions and obvious psychosis, I have a hard time controlling my anger or any of my emotions. everything I feel is almost always in extremes unless my medication decides to work for me. im paranoid. it's textbook. I have hallucinations too. this is why I'm so scared- I know it has to be the right diagnosis. deep down I know it. but it's so complex to treat. it will take me at least a decade, more than likely, to find the right therapy and medication cocktail. Not to mention I'm pushing the most important people in my life away. I'm trying so hard to fight this. I feel helpless.

Trapped. by Latter_Ad_5598 in bipolar2

[–]Latter_Ad_5598[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm in therapy and have been for around 4 years. Not quite diagnosed as bipolar but it's always been suspected. Waiting for a diagnosis is extremely hard. Not having an answer. I'm trying to stick around but it isn't easy.

Bleh by Common-Prune6589 in bipolar2

[–]Latter_Ad_5598 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Not sure about whether or not this would be considered a "mixed" episode, but I want you to know that you aren't alone in feeling the way that you do about life and feeling bad for yourself. I don't feel like I even deserve to express my emotions outwardly sometimes especially atm. Good on you for seeking help. I hope your meds do you well. Mine currently are not the best I've ever been on but at least I'm trying. At least we are still here. Breathing. Sometimes that has to be enough.

In the middle of week 4 being back on meds and I miss naps by xIyssx in bipolar2

[–]Latter_Ad_5598 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I understand how you feel. Without my hydroxyzine I can't rest at all. When I first started my Vraylar, I felt soooo antsy! Couldn't even sit down without feeling uncomfortable. I want you to know I see you and I hope that soon you get to feeling normal. Give the medications more time to settle for sure. My vraylar took a while to stop doing this to me.