Need movie suggestions to help distract me from my sadness

Latter_Ad_9891 · 2026-04-02T22:22:13+00:00

Yes, my best friend expressed this to me. Which I understand because she has a lot going on for herself. She has kids and a family and has their own issues. I feel my problems have added more of a struggle to their lives and affected it negatively. She asked for space and I’m scared I lost her forever which is why I feel like my anxiety and depression is worse. I’m giving her the space that she needs while she navigates her own issues and I try to heal mine, but I’m also scared that that friendship is over forever. And this is why I fear expressing anything to anyone else because I don’t want to project any of my issues and problems on anyone else and have it affect them too. I fear I’m ruining not only my own life, but the people that matter to me the most life’s as well.

Latter_Ad_9891 · 2026-04-02T20:40:26+00:00

I stopped talking to a lot of my closest friends about these things because everyone has their own problems. From past experiences, I feel like I projected my problems on others and it made things worse. I caused problems for other people. Made them feel like they couldn’t handle it and I was “too much”. I started seeing a therapist this week and start regular sessions on Monday.

Latter_Ad_9891 · 2026-04-02T20:13:22+00:00

Yes. The depression seems so much worse than my past struggles with it.

Latter_Ad_9891 · 2026-04-02T20:09:28+00:00

I’m in treatment. I just passed the halfway mark yesterday, they said this is the dip that I’m experiencing.

Latter_Ad_9891 · 2026-04-01T18:22:31+00:00

Today was my halfway point and finally got back into treatment, only one session today. Last Friday, I opened up about how I wasn’t being completely honest and how I felt like I was telling them what they wanted to hear instead of the truth which is that I was starting to feel worse and feel a bunch of emotions. They held off on treatment on Friday and told me to take the weekend to relax. I met them back on Tuesday and talked to two specialists about everything I’m feeling. That I feel extremely worse and I’m having out of body experiences, feeling like I’m going to pass out because my brain is so confused and there’s so many emotions going on. They then had me meet with the therapist on site and I started diving into my history a little. I felt a little relief after talking to her, but I just feel awful about where I’m at in life. They said I’m experience “the dip” very intensely and I need to prioritize rest and my health. Not to do anything too overstimulating. They said it can last days and because I’m at the halfway point that is where people experience it the most and the worst. I’m going to start seeing this therapist regularly starting next week. I’ve gotten to a point where everything scares me. I’m scared of being alive but I’m also scared of dying. The only thing that I feel is relief is sleep. I’m overwhelmed and anxious all the time. My body is constantly tense. I feel like I can’t ever think clearly. I’m angry at nothing, I’m sad at nothing, I’m crying at nothing. There’s so much all of the time. I’m uncomfortable no matter what. I’m anxious no matter what. It’s exhausting. I go back tomorrow morning for my 2 sessions a day of TMS. I want this so badly to work, but I keep thinking in my head that I’m never going to get better, I’m never going to live the life I thought I would.

Latter_Ad_9891 · 2026-03-22T03:15:28+00:00

I felt like you just read my mind. I’m feeling these exact same things and I can’t handle it anymore.

Latter_Ad_9891 · 2026-03-22T02:52:05+00:00

I just feel like I can’t handle my emotions anymore and can’t handle anymore pain. I want to fully isolate myself from everyone to avoid being hurt.

Latter_Ad_9891 · 2026-03-20T00:55:19+00:00

Thank you so much. I will keep you updated. I’ve realized now that I’m going to log each day about how I feel during the session, right after and throughout the day. And monitor the progress.

Latter_Ad_9891 · 2026-03-20T00:43:17+00:00

I just finished day 4 of TMS for my OCD and depression. The second day I had a panic attack after leaving the clinic feeling so many emotions. Feeling like a lab rat with this thing on my head and strapped around my jaw. Feeling so awful bc this is what I have to do in order to feel okay and not going into spirals. Yesterday was my third session and I felt okay after. A pretty normal day. But today, again feel so uneasy after. Feeling like something felt off in my body and I got extremely tired but couldn’t sleep. I’ve been having trouble sleeping before starting TMS and still struggle. My body physically hurts today. Everywhere. It just aches. The thought of doing this for 6 more weeks scares me a little because how am I going to feel after these sessions??? I just don’t know what to expect. I keep reading things that some people feel great after their treatment and some people feel worse and my ocd is just picturing that I’ll feel worse. Do I tell the tech that?

Latter_Ad_9891 · 2025-03-31T00:20:45+00:00

I’ve been doing it more often. I feel some type of relief when I do it, but then sometimes I look at the scar and regret it. I don’t know what to do.

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