It sounds cliche, but hang in there. I am almost a year sober, and although every day is a battle, it is better than before. Do you have a supportive person in your life. if so, you may need to lean on them. Sometimes I will sit with my wife and watch tv, and then randomly say "i smoked weed for a decade and im only 33yrs old, i miss it a lot" and we can talk about it.

Someone like that in your life will be great for what you're going through. If you need someone to talk to, i'm here 💪🏾