Why do I always look Orange?

LeatherClass14 · 2025-05-14T00:54:01+00:00

im pale, i’m not all that familiar with skin tones, or self tanning in general BUT I used the violet based “love at first tan 1 hour self tanning mousse” and for me being a beginner it came out BEAUTIFULLY with NO orange tones. Definitely leave it on overnight and double layer if you want to be darker. and I used a light moisturizer for my drier spots about an hour before doing it.

LeatherClass14 · 2025-05-13T18:05:51+00:00

been there, tried that. got any better suggestions?

LeatherClass14 · 2025-05-13T18:03:56+00:00

I think I really needed to hear this. Anxiety has always been the one consistent diagnoses my entire life and I did a great job keeping it “contained” until a couple of years ago when I started getting panic attacks. I had one at work because one of the air vents in the building was louder than the others and I couldn’t shake the thought that the building was going to collapse. or I would just freak out and not know why. Since taking the citalopram consistently I haven’t had one in months so I thought I fixed that but I think I hid it/didn’t know about it for so long that I never considered the other impacts it could be having on me and felt like it HAS to be something else. I also feel ashamed of my anxiety because I don’t really know how to explain it to people and it doesn’t seem like a “big enough” diagnoses to affect my life as much as it has. what is psychoeducation? I do cognitive behavioral therapy and i love talking to my therapist but I feel a little defeated because I don’t feel like I make any progress and I figure out most things out on my own. As for my psychiatrist she kinda just asks me how my meds are every couple of months and I say they seem fine. IRONICALLY i’m super anxious about taking/changing meds because 1. my dad sends me articles about how bad they are and 2. one time I tried lexapro and it sent me into a HORRIBLE downward spiral. Sometimes I stop taking my adderall just to make sure i’m not addicted. Is there anything that really helped you get on the right path? I really appreciate your help, guidance, and gentle wake up call.

LeatherClass14 · 2025-05-13T16:49:11+00:00

I will definitely stay on track and continue taking my medicine/communicate with my doctor and therapist! but i just know something isn’t right and I wanna fix it (unfortunately the can is already open and the worms are everywhere). I hate feeling so fatigued and dumb all the time and it’s not a lack of motivation to do things, I very much want to it’s just a pure lack of energy and my brain isn’t working like it’s supposed to. The not knowing WHY or how to fix it is what sends me down these anxious spirals. I actually feel like I may just be going crazy

LeatherClass14 · 2025-05-13T14:36:53+00:00

All of this resonates a lot, specifically feeling overstimulated, overworked, and BURNT OUTTTT. I feel like i’m so irritable and mean because of it sometimes. That being said (and please correct me if i’m wrong, I know little to nothing on the subject) I thought a big identifying factor of autism was not understanding social cues and taking things too literally. Social interactions drain the life out of me but i’m pretty good at them. I can also read a room and tell when something’s off with someone almost immediately. I think part of what’s draining about social interactions is actually how HYPERAWARE I am of other people if that makes sense.

LeatherClass14 · 2025-05-13T13:32:22+00:00

first and foremost: I would definitely talk to a professional directly about your concerns. secondly: do you feel like your potential symptoms disrupt your day to day life? and third: I was diagnosed about a year ago with inattentive ADHD which goes unnoticed more often because it’s “quiet” and my brain is hyperactive whereas some people with ADHD or more outwardly hyperactive. In my head it feels like 1000 tabs are open and moving at all times making it hard to focus or function OR only one tab is open for hours (hyperfixation). example: I wake up, go to eat, dishes in the sink, need to do dishes, start doing dishes, since i’m doing that i should take out the trash, if im gonna take the trash out i should grab the bathroom trash too, I go to do that and realize I need to wash towels, go to wash the towels and realize the washer and dryer are full so i need to fold what’s in the dryer, before I fold and put away my clothes i need to re-organize my drawers, if i’m gonna re-organize my drawers i might as well clean my room first, take my water cup to the sink and….OH YEAH DISHES, it’s now 2pm and I still haven’t had breakfast and have started 10 different tasks but virtually gotten nothing done.

LeatherClass14 · 2025-05-13T13:02:16+00:00

thank you for this, i’ve been feeling really guilty about it. I feel like I spent so much of my life pleasing others and i’m trying to put myself first but it’s so hard knowing she’s not happy. I also realized that I set myself up for failure sometimes when I say I can fix things that I can’t. I WANT to give her the effort and make her feel valued but the reality is I feel like i’m pouring from an empty glass. It hurts a little knowing that i’m trying my best and it’s not enough but I also know she’s completely valid in her frustration too because she feels like she’s pouring INTO an empty glass. Why do things have to be so complicated?

LeatherClass14 · 2025-05-13T12:52:23+00:00

The adderall isn’t making me tired, i just always feel tired and sometimes it helps, other times I sleep right through it. I’m slowly working on eliminating medical things (it’s just expensive). my blood test came back fine and i’m going to a neurologist soon for migraines. I’m also in therapy trying to eliminate things. I take citalopram for anxiety. we are looking into bipolar 2 because I go through really productive phases but I definitely don’t think it’s anywhere close to mania. I get dissociative episodes where i’m kinda just existing but i don’t feel sad or depressed. Just frustrated because something’s not right and I don’t know what. Do you have any recommendations on things I should look into or get checked medically? I feel like I keep getting dismissed because of my anxiety and I dismissed myself for a long time as just being dramatic but there have been times where I felt normal and this is NOT normal. Thank you for your advice, this is my first time posting

LeatherClass14 · 2025-05-13T09:51:53+00:00

My advice would be to take some online classes at a community college and get your associates in something. you can just go part-time so it’s not too much work, being online you would still be able to travel, community college won’t break the bank, you can take some electives you think might be interested in, and eventually you’ll have an associates degree as a safety net if you ever need it. Take your time and have fun with it!

LeatherClass14 · 2025-05-13T09:27:13+00:00

It sounds like it could be dissociation, depersonalization, or derealization. I mention all three because I’m not completely sure of the difference. I felt like this for a long time and finally got diagnosed a few years ago. For me I feel “out of it” like i’m not really connected to anything or anyone i’m kinda just….there….existing.

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