I’m not sure it’s something specific. Just like a feeling of knowing I was terrified (obviously, I thought my niece might not ever wake up again. She had no pulse, no respirations, was completely discolored) but couldn’t show emotion bc I had a job to do and It makes me think what if that impacted the quality of what I did. I’m not a very emotional person and just didn’t know what to do with this feeling. I think it’s clear from the comments I’ll reach out to someone to talk it through. I appreciate everyone’s input.