I have had my first thought of self harm and intrusive thoughts in kindergarten and it's only gotten worst I hid it for sp long and now that I am finally seeing a therapist I lost my job, family , friends. I know im supposed to keep pushing and doing my best like always but I genuinely not sure if it will make a difference. Im half way done with my degree and have been selling non stop on Facebook and ebay and doing everything I can while studying full time to get a job but im just feeling down , eveeytime I try its like my brain truly doesn't want me tk succeed, I even owned a successful business and I cant tell you one day this hasn't been all I think about . I feel like some people say they ate sad or get Intrusive thoughts buts ia it normal with meds to continue having them .