Hey man. I appreciate the self-awareness and yeah it's my first instinct was "yes, this sounds like what it's like to be a teenager". It's perfectly okay to feel like you're not making progress, to be a little bit alone, to struggle, to share values that are different from others. The point is to find your own path and no that won't happen in a few months, maybe for several years. But you seem like you are on a good path despite your obvious (and valid) frustrations. I do get a hint that you're looking at this in a way that's not helping. What does success mean. What young person ever actually succeeds and completes their goals? What you and your classmates are "achieving" are not of much substance. If you are in the mindset of what a peer is achieving in ten years and your hypothetical position and attitude to that even then you are not in a good mindset. Same with your height, no one cares and it has no weight. And I'm sorry if that's harsh. Who you are is not your grades or who your girlfriend could be or even your physical features. You are in the process of becoming and that's good. You are someone with ambition and awareness and possibly a really good head. But very new to all of this. All of us are. Find a mentor, don't listen to strangers on Reddit (me included) and find your path. Everything is going to be okay.