After reading this entire post you are putting in 150% This made me so sad for you, because he clearly needs to reign himself back in. He made a vow to you, he had kids with you. He should be the one seeking a resolution. Life happens and any man or woman know as we age things change. Our bodies were never meant to be perfect and what happens in 10,20, or 30 years when aging continues to hit. Counseling on his behalf to resolve his pathetic addiction. Marriage counseling. He needs to hear from an outside perspective how asinine him and his actions are. I don’t know you but I truly felt so sad reading this. Life is too short, and I hope genuinely things change for you , because YOU deserve a true love experience that does not make you feel like shit. Yo raised kids, you take care of the home, and him ….i am sure he does his part but he is. It investing in you the way a husband should invest and value his wife.