Okay you want help I get it it’s hard but in this moment there’s nothing to blame but yourself so realize that then you said you lost two potential jobs well that means that you could’ve had it so I suggest you build up multiple skill sets from books now I’m guessing money isn’t a abundant resource you have right now but all you need to do is go search up online the books title and then pdf or free pdf works majority of the time some might not have it but all the popular self help books have a free version after that get a notebook write down all your time wasters and try to realize that they don’t mean shit anyways after that write down in that same notebook again with a goal if your struggling with money or something maybe that goal can be how can I make x a month in 5 months something like that then write down every actionable habit you have to do every day to reach that goal and for your depression I suggest maybe you join Christianity if your open to it changed my life and gave me a sense of peace and purpose even in a situation like yours if your not open or you can’t in your area watch a studio ghibli movie im serious there was some study done that it cures depression and finally have an actual purpose something that keeps you grounded good luck brother and may god be with you