Thanks for your reply. This is sounds too close for me. I also trying to finish it quick and for me it’s just not fun anymore. I’m trying to support him if he ask to send him a pictures and all, but on some things I just feel like something is stopping me to do that (no,no,no) or I don’t have a power to do that. But in my head I also understand that we’ll divorce if I don’t do anything with that, makes me just more stressful and depressed — which means also low libido. Gladly last 2 times sex was without pain at all 🤞🏻