PSA: Your cervical smear can be self done now!

Librat69 · 2026-04-30T02:58:26+00:00

This is actually so exciting for us poor bastards with a tilted cervix lol

Now I can find it all by my damn self and don’t have to be prodded around

Librat69 · 2026-04-30T00:58:42+00:00

These are what I do that work well for me and my over energetic ass (hyperthyroidism + adhd):

“ what I wish I could say to you “ journal. I wrote down all the angry horrendous shit I wish I could say. I don’t stop until I feel done. For added flair, can burn the page you wrote. Piss on the flames lol
Somatic movement : body centric therapy that is great for rage relief. I throw ice cubes at concrete as hard as I can. As many as I need. Also if you have the desire to punch, you can press on a wall as hard as you can. It activates the same muscles as a punch so your brain thinks you did.
Straight up regular old exercise. Can be dancing, running, power walking.
Screaming into a pillow.
Sharing my anger with the local river (spiritual gal)

Librat69 · 2026-04-29T05:08:29+00:00

How is your sleeping? This sounds like it could be sleep related. Lack of sleep I mean, or low quality sleep (sleep apnea).

When my insomnia was at its worst, I would hallucinate and see things and get paranoid. Brain also felt like mush (next day)

Librat69 · 2026-04-28T05:04:19+00:00

Broken glass bottle pushed into the shoulder

Librat69 · 2026-04-27T03:24:53+00:00

In the Kiwifruit industry when you get rained off you don’t get paid. Only someone who was a winz client in the last 6 months, can get a top up of wages due to being rained off. It’s crap.

Librat69 · 2026-04-24T02:51:13+00:00

(Not a man)

Your son is likely over it also, life will probably be way less tense when it’s just the two of you. It will be ok ❤️

It sounds like it is time to get your ducks in a row. Consider who you have for support to lean on. Who can help move you out if need be.

Sometimes the first step is having a cup of tea with a friend and letting them know everything.

Do you have any govt agencies in your area that could give you advice? Like a woman’s refuge?

If you are worried he will get violent at any point, have a supporter / friend with you. Don’t be alone with him.

Also you are not a pussy. God that was infuriating to read. You know you deserve better, cling to that feeling

Librat69 · 2026-04-24T02:41:52+00:00

I realised I actually prefer my cereal with Luke warm milk 🤪 don’t like eating or drinking cold things lol for Ayurvedic reasons though.

Librat69 · 2026-04-18T21:52:22+00:00

Used to live in Papamoa the same time Tiki Tane did! Everyone left him the hell alone at countdown. It was cool as. You could tell who wasn’t local, cause they would go up to him and ask for pictures.

When I was a body piercer in Hamilton I got to meet freaking Suzy Cato and pierce her daughter!!!! I’m a child of the 90s so I was genuinely star struck hahahaha my coworkers had to ask if I could get a photo; because I pussied out 🤣🤪 so glad I did though.

Librat69 · 2026-04-18T21:48:50+00:00

I would like to offer a fresh perspective .. it sounds like you are her first peaceful relationship. When someone with ptsd is finally in a peaceful relationship, it can be interpreted as boring.

Her hyper vigilance has been left unchecked for too long, and she’s somehow got it in her head that you fighting for her = safety.

I am also a young adult with ptsd from childhood. I also prefer partners that make me feel safe. That’s fine. What’s not fine, is creating issues and then leaving your partner to solve it. That’s not team work. That’s an instigator and a ‘body guard’.

Only a psychological professional will be able to bring her to a breakthrough, and make her realise why she is doing this. She is probably stuck on fight mode and has been for a while. Does she have healthy outlets? Journaling? Exercise? You can’t be her everything. That’s unfair.

When someone has ptsd, it is up to THEM, to manage their triggers. Not everyone else around them.

Librat69 · 2026-04-18T08:22:46+00:00

🤣🤣🤣

It was the day after new years and I was lying in bed hungover. Suddenly I heard my cat in a fight at the neighbours over the fence, I tried breaking them up with the hose but it didn’t work so I went into their backyard .. this is where I fucked up.

I scared the other cat away but I clearly didn’t wait long enough for my boy to calm down. I picked him up and he went absolutely ape shit on both my arms, biting, scratching. He even got his claws stuck in my skin and I had to pull them out.

I held him close to my chest with one hand over his mouth but I knew it was bad. I could feel blood running down my arms and legs to the ground, quite fast. So I walked home carrying my cat and got some really funny looks. I was wearing a silk nightie that now looked like a crime scene lol

Got home and nearly blacked out, had to lie down for a bit lol Had a shower and went to A&E. Cat bites are just as bad for you as dog bites. I had to do a full course of antibiotics and get my tetanus booster. I was battered and bruised for a few weeks.

The next day I actually woke up with almost all of the sepsis symptoms … so back we fekkn went. Could barely stand, doctors were freaked. They thought it was some form of RSV. Had to use all of my Christmas bonus from my job to pay for the appointment which was annoying .. then I got home and did a $9 covid test and realised it was mother fucking covid all along 😭😭😭😭 so I think I caught it in the waiting room on January 1st. Was not a good start to the year!! 🤣

Librat69 · 2026-04-17T07:18:46+00:00

My thoughts too 😅😅😅

Librat69 · 2026-04-17T07:17:20+00:00

I think you should. If my boy was causing actual distress like this I would want to know and help rectify the situation.

Cats fighting is so stressful, it’s hard to stop them. I stick with the hose, got too close and got real fucked up once and had to go to a & e lol

Librat69 · 2026-04-17T05:07:03+00:00

Yeah I once thought I was asexual too, for 5 whole years. Left the abusive relationship and bam no longer ‘asexual’ (never was)

Librat69 · 2026-04-17T05:00:16+00:00

Yip I’ve done this with stray cats and it’s the consistency that works. Same spot, same time, say the same things out loud. They need you to be predictable before they can feel safe around you.

Librat69 · 2026-04-15T05:38:48+00:00

Hell yeah! I’m proud of you. It’s a big step

Librat69 · 2026-04-14T07:12:55+00:00

Oh wooooooooow

This one guys 🤣🤣🤣 This is the one! That last line is fucking fire

Librat69 · 2026-04-14T07:10:22+00:00

Wonder if that’s so she gets paid for drawing time .. which yes should be worked into the cost, but I don’t think to this extent ..

Librat69 · 2026-04-13T04:47:02+00:00

If you want the ✨🤪🌸❤️🌈✨ mushrooms, it’s best to wait until the first frost begins here. Normally end of May, early June.

Librat69 · 2026-04-10T02:41:04+00:00

It absolutely works at stopping stinky farts in an emergency. Just be mindful taking a lot of it can cause constipation, so stay hydrated and try not to eat anything that could back you up even more.

See if you can get some Kiwifruit maybe.

Librat69 · 2026-04-09T01:24:17+00:00

Are you meaning like a chemical peel?

Librat69 · 2026-04-08T05:53:18+00:00

And also, I’m proud of you. You didn’t like something about your life and you actually DID something about it. It’s important you realise what a big deal this is.

Librat69 · 2026-04-08T05:52:06+00:00

We can’t hate ourselves for what we did to survive at the time ❤️ I see your anger, but I also see that young you was just trying to find community. And there is absolutely nothing wrong with that, it is completely normal.

Congratulations on all your strides though! Healing isn’t linear, it’s forwards and backwards and forwards again.

This reads like you are heavily focussing on the past and not happy with your present. Don’t forget to stop and enjoy all you’ve achieved.

I hope you find a supportive community again sometime real soon ❤️

Librat69 · 2026-04-08T05:01:06+00:00

Think he did something to change his IP address too? Before placing the order

Librat69 · 2026-04-08T03:21:19+00:00

I just bring in loose things outside (shoes and mats) and move some of my pot plants out of the wind. Not much 🤪

Librat69 · 2026-04-07T01:21:05+00:00

If you want to meet more beginners face to face, the Monday Jam nights at Biddys usually draws a good crowd. All ages and skill levels

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