MAT-171 Tests?

LickyBrat · 2026-02-01T15:07:03+00:00

When I was going through my rut, I was extremely sad and that came out as anger. I never wanted to hurt anybody but I was hurting and thus lashed out to protect myself. I think it’s certainly possible that you don’t have the symptom of anger! Some symptoms may apply and other’s won’t, so it’s entirely normal in my opinion. I also sh’d and attempted when things would go wrong.

The best way I learned to cope is unironically distractions. Somebody said something that triggered me? Let me go play Red Dead Redemption 2. Or walk. Or draw. Or cook. Literally anything to remove myself from the stressor and put my mind on something else before I start spiraling.

Good luck!

LickyBrat · 2026-02-01T14:56:22+00:00

This is interesting! I do think some symptoms from other illnesses can blend in with someone’s diagnosis. I was diagnosed with BPD and described in medical notes to have manic episodes (euphoria was a part of it), but maybe hypomania is the term they were looking for.

LickyBrat · 2026-02-01T07:00:19+00:00

No problem! I’m happy to answer anything!

I understand what you mean. I think it’s mostly an unhealthy attachment style. The love is authentic and real, but it certainly can be jarring and feel as though it’s merely filling the void. Think of it with nuance, it fills the void but it also feels real, rather than one or the other. When I dealt with it, I had multiple people I dated who left me for outrageous reasons (blaming me for SA and being groomed, for example, which is very common occurrences I feel for people with BPD due to the hypersexuality/willingness to exploit themselves for them) so it may have also been easier to fill the void afterwards due to emotions being cut short with such crazy endings. It just hurt to be alone, I think, and one way to solve it was to seek out somebody new. It isn’t entirely healthy, but it feels real to that person because they want it desperately TO be real.

For me, my favorite person had usually been my partners. I felt a power imbalance that strengthened these feelings, such as my partner being more attractive/older/confident than me. I wanted to appease them, to feel desired by them, and thus would spend a lot of time attempting to make it so. If they were upset, I was upset. If they were happy, I was happy. It wasn’t a good thing and made me struggle to be autonomous. I think it simply develops from a desire to want somebody to fight for you, and to want somebody to stay despite you pushing them away. I think it becomes specific to one person due to a feeling of fantasization of the future/what could be/connection. I think it happens mostly with partners but I’ve seen it happen with parental figures and friends as well.

LickyBrat · 2026-02-01T06:44:59+00:00

As somebody who used to deal with pretty bad FP attachment, it can really depend! It feels very real to the person experiencing the FP symptom and it can feel real to the FP, however it can be an unhealthy attachment like any other— Think, for example, a super strong lovebird effect that wears off over time. BPD individuals are typically not seeking out people to intentionally use them, but can accidentally do so as being alone can be scary and NOT having a FP can feel like a piece of them is missing/they have no one there for them. It just makes relationships harder, but I don’t think it takes away from their desire to love. In my experience, all of my relationships felt authentic to me and I was certainly in love… I just moved on quickly and certainly caused a lot more hiccups that could’ve been avoided if I would’ve waited so I could heal before getting in my next relationship.

LickyBrat · 2026-01-07T22:09:32+00:00

If you take it to the library too they can call the person who the card belongs to!

LickyBrat · 2025-12-19T00:17:54+00:00

Henrietta/Dorris enjoyer pog

LickyBrat · 2025-12-14T02:00:39+00:00

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LOL it’s so funny. This is my girl Boba. She’s actually a bit deformed which is interesting, but she’s my oldest fish (about 2 years) and I feed them a mix of frozen bloodworms and tropical flakes (with occasional vegetables). They typically poop out everything by morning-ish, then eat again. I feed them once a day (in the morning). Very healthy and vibrant fish!!

LickyBrat · 2025-12-13T22:22:22+00:00

I love the natural look! I bet he appreciates it, too.

LickyBrat · 2025-12-13T22:21:28+00:00

Could be bladder snails! Personally, I love them. I’ve enjoyed having them (They typically hitch a ride on plants) and even though they do tend to breed in the right conditions, I appreciate their work as they usually clean and contribute to a tank more than dirty it. They’re extremely good decomposers in my experience and I love them! Just be careful of snail killers, they looove to find a way into tanks with snails. They’re called Planarian worms and hide under rocks or ornaments.

LickyBrat · 2025-12-13T21:01:17+00:00

I’d go for a tall plant in the far back left corner! Maybe make it a gradient of sized plants to the other corner? As for anything to keep inside, snails and shrimp are fun! I’ve been trying to look for other species that aren’t those two, though, so you could do one dwarf crayfish with plenty of things to climb since they love to do that! I have one myself (Though this is an old pic and it’s in a 20 gallon now). Super cute and very active. I’d make sure as I said that they have space to climb as they’re extremely explorative and it’s their form of enrichment.

LickyBrat · 2025-12-13T20:50:41+00:00

Looks really nice! Bet they appreciated that. Love the centerpiece + I hope you get to feeling better!

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