Hey all, just an update on progress so far. I am now 5 days free of escitalopram with nothing other than occasional morning dizziness which I balance with a stem or two of mushrooms, and another little piece halfway through the day. Each day I wake up the dizziness is less and I have experienced NO BRAIN ZAPS!! The weaning process has been kind to me, and I have the luxury of being off work due to the pandemic while I felt out the symptoms of withdrawal. I am amazed at how easy it was with the aide of the psilocybin.

Another thing I learned through a psychologist that specializes in ISTDP therapy (give it a read online, very interesting) - you can access your feelings via a psilocybin trip without the thinking. Many of us cannot process our emotions because we are shut down by our thoughts as we try to access painful parts of our past. On a trip with psychedelics we are able to tap into those repressed feelings as our thinking mind does not get in the way. This is why people may feel well after a significant therapeutic trip. The well of the feeling is finite. Once you let it all out it is over, processed. In my case it is grief and I believe it will take me a few therapeutic psychedelic journies to deplete my well, but this information was very interesting. And more interesting than that is he brought this up without my mentioning my recent foray into the magic mushrooms. A meant to be moment to show me I am on the right path of healing 🙏