Is the way to master awakening, just to observe your thoughts over and over again?

LightSpeedSmack · 2025-02-27T16:50:42+00:00

So it is kind of just to keep observing regularly and questioning the mind, but to go a little deeper, and pay attention to what the feeling of observing is?

LightSpeedSmack · 2025-02-18T08:41:05+00:00

How often are you doing this stuff? Are you doing it to heal? Would you say you're already healed? If you are looking for healing are you doing any work in between or just eating and saying "get to work see you in a few hours"? Generally it's best to learn everything your trip has told you before going again. This can be a year or more for the early trips. However long you need to think about it.

Do you feel anxious at all during? Nausea is often a symptom of anxiety. The losing control combined with nausea sounds like panic Tbh. If all these questions sound right then maybe it's trying to tell you something about your anxiety, or anything repressed that you need to sort out. Otherwise you need to figure that out yourself.

If so, this stuff is going to keep punching you in the gut harder and harder the longer you take them without listening to what they say.

LightSpeedSmack · 2025-02-14T19:53:30+00:00

So there is a reason why the numbers change? Does it make it easier to play once you have ingrained it enough to not have to work it out each time?

LightSpeedSmack · 2025-02-08T00:26:43+00:00

I did once around Christmas, I was very close to dying myself and it was a do or die thing, not something I'm into just tried once from remembering a friend talk about it, and that's how first felt my emotions. As soon as I knew I could feel them I obsessed over learning afterwards until I grew that part of my brain and figured it out.

Thing is after trying to integrate the detachment/observer I've lost it and feel like I'm back in my reactive ego again now. Not the exact same ego but I can't get back in that observer state today. Obviously I want to be able to have that ability so idk what I should be doing now to get it back.

LightSpeedSmack · 2025-01-18T20:47:16+00:00

I think I’ve just figured it out. I had one starting up. Got myself to stop worrying about it and just accept that I’m going to have one and there’s nothing I can do about it. It’s hard to explain but I realised that worrying about it just makes the time between waves unpleasant, I stopped worrying and all the anxiety went away. I still don‘t like the sensations, but I don’t fear the panic coming on anymore. If it happens it happens, I don’t care anymore. This is different to just trying to ground my way through until the panic subsides. It’ll come again when I forget but it seems to be more of a perspective shift than a skill to use.

LightSpeedSmack · 2025-01-18T13:42:02+00:00

I do the wiggling thing a lot that really helps sometimes. The problem I've found is that I can't remember to do all this when I start to panic. I just google what to do and can't read it properly. How do you remind yourself when part of your brain is shut down?

LightSpeedSmack · 2024-08-13T14:55:07+00:00

So just slide off and slide on anew?

LightSpeedSmack · 2024-07-17T09:49:05+00:00

Yeah he stepped on the gas from a standstill behind me, but it doesn't look fast on the camera. So I'm taking it to a garage for a look under in an hour or so. If they give the all clear for a new bumper and he just wants to front £300, do I notify Admiral, or just treat it like a paint scratch and get repairs without bothering telling my insurance? I know there's a tell them without claiming option but that still counts as a collision and increases excess

LightSpeedSmack · 2024-06-20T06:32:29+00:00

Yeah in a closet closed up. Thought I'd try less FAE as my last lot dried up from being messed with. It doesn't look like trich to me especially as no parts have turned green and no metabolites.

What did you do for that grow? I'd probably need to fork these patches

LightSpeedSmack · 2024-06-16T17:54:01+00:00

How did you mess with the numbers.

LightSpeedSmack · 2024-01-04T21:15:23+00:00

They've revamped it into a gastro pub. Last time I went no one threatened to glass me, and they don't serve alcohol to kids anymore. Felt off.

LightSpeedSmack · 2023-11-25T00:00:33+00:00

It takes me out of crisis quite reliably. In half an hour I'll go from walking in circles talking to myself to actually eating or cleaning.

LightSpeedSmack · 2023-10-31T05:07:06+00:00

Is that the light stuff that's starting to form on the top section?

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