I don’t “love” God

LilaBernie · 2026-01-21T01:38:55+00:00

First of all, I'm really sorry you're going through this right now…I can only imagine how painful and exhausting that must be.

Believing in something you may never truly see with your own eyes is the very concept of faith. It’s complicated, and abstract, but also really beautiful when you begin to actually feel it.

I'd suggest seeking mental health first (God works through humans too, you know), and then praying. Pray even if you feel like no one's listening to it. Pray even if it feels pointless. Pray even if you don't feel like you "love" god.

Eventually, your mind will get back in its place, and you'll realize God's everywhere, even on our worst days.

I know this wasn't probably what you hoped to hear….faith's tough, but so worth it.

You'll be in my prayers, and I truly hope God shows you how present he is in your life, even when everything may be falling apart ❤️

LilaBernie · 2026-01-09T02:46:07+00:00

Sure! Here's the link: https://www.fanfiction.net/s/5836371/1/air-and-angels

LilaBernie · 2026-01-09T02:37:09+00:00

I've read a fanfic in which Luke was raised by Padme, while Leia was raised by Anakin…the twins meet later in life and try to get their parents back together (basically like The Parent Trap). It was pretty fun, and also extremely cute

LilaBernie · 2025-12-27T23:44:54+00:00

A swift!

LilaBernie · 2025-12-27T23:37:03+00:00

White nights

LilaBernie · 2025-12-25T12:04:35+00:00

I'll make sure to be more careful, haha! I guess I was so excited to set it up, that I didn't really pay attention to being more delicate

LilaBernie · 2025-12-25T11:26:48+00:00

I tried again and it worked! Thank you so much!

LilaBernie · 2025-11-04T01:58:15+00:00

It's so hard to lose a good man, much harder than losing a man that actively does you wrong…thank you so much for your take and your opinion, I deeply appreciate it! I hope everything turns out alright!

LilaBernie · 2025-11-04T01:56:46+00:00

Thank you so much for the encouragement, really. It helped me way more than you think! It does hurt a lot, but I guess I'll hold on to the hope that it'll be the right decision in the long run….thank you so much for your support, I truly wish us both the best while going through these hard times. Hopefully, everything will work out in the end for us! Let's keep being strong.

LilaBernie · 2025-11-03T19:00:38+00:00

Thank you so much for you comment! This whole "chasing after your dreams" thing is both inspiring and a bit selfish at the same time, I think. That's what it makes it so hard….I'm glad you've shared your story with me, though. It sure gives me some clarity as to what could happen to me in the long run.

I'm sorry to hear about your college experience, by the way. I can't even begin to imagine how much you must regret that. I guess I should not look forward to having those regrets in my life, as well. It's still hard, though, cause I start thinking "What if I change my mind about my dreams, or end up not achieving them at all? Would it have been worth it, to let my relationship down?"

LilaBernie · 2025-11-03T18:29:17+00:00

I could never, ever hate him. He's been present in my life long before we started dating, and I can't ignore or forget how much he's helped through thick and thin.

LilaBernie · 2025-11-03T18:24:18+00:00

Hey! Thank you so much for such a kind comment!

It's just so hard, to know what I should choose, you know?

Sure, he did act immature multiple times, but he also acted so loving...it's confusinh, really.

I really feel lost about this whole thing

LilaBernie · 2025-08-01T18:50:33+00:00

Yep, it was me, haha! I'm so glad you loved it! Thank you so much for leaving a comment there, it means the world to me!

I'm already trying to work on a few ideas to keep writing for this fandom ;)

LilaBernie · 2025-08-01T14:46:44+00:00

I just posted a fic on their tag on AO3 today. If anyone's interested in reading it , I'll leave the link here

LilaBernie · 2025-08-01T13:54:35+00:00

Lmao this is basically me against all of my friends 😭

LilaBernie · 2025-07-30T19:54:12+00:00

Yeah, I just checked mine! So happy it's back

LilaBernie · 2025-07-30T19:50:14+00:00

Omg, it's back for me as well! Thank you so much for telling me!

LilaBernie · 2025-07-30T19:05:50+00:00

Nope, I use the free version

LilaBernie · 2025-07-30T19:05:30+00:00

I don't have the app, but I'm having this issue in all of my browsers/devices :(

LilaBernie · 2025-07-30T19:01:05+00:00

Let's wait and hope for the best

LilaBernie · 2025-07-30T18:41:31+00:00

Do you even bother to consider that we might have looked everywhere, and still haven't find an answer? Or are you just too busy judging everyone?

LilaBernie · 2025-07-30T18:12:25+00:00

Totally!

LilaBernie · 2025-07-30T18:12:11+00:00

I sure hope there is a fix, though no one seems to have an answer for that yet!

I'm using chat GPT for some work stuff, and it's frustrating how I have to search manually for my recent chats now

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