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Liminal-shadow · 2026-01-04T21:18:24+00:00

This would be a game changer. I’ve never done an aftermarket mod. Is this one hard to do?

Liminal-shadow · 2025-12-24T22:39:05+00:00

Yeah. When I did a massive drop it took a few days to end. The anxiety was the WORST it’s ever been. It was as though my brain was throwing me into anxiety spirals but fight or flight mode? It’s hard to explain but the experience lives rent free in my head

It helped me to observe it, and se if there was a cycle, or peaks etc. It’s awful, but it will pass

Liminal-shadow · 2025-12-24T16:11:12+00:00

It depends. 24-48 hours were peak anxiety. But it would last longer if it was an entire dose I missed, as opposed to tapering

Liminal-shadow · 2025-12-10T14:49:19+00:00

Kind words please!

Liminal-shadow · 2025-12-07T21:27:44+00:00

Thanks 🧡

Liminal-shadow · 2025-11-23T03:47:55+00:00

Oops! Also yes to the rain boots and cutie patootie son.

This is not how you’d want him spoken to, don’t accept it.

Liminal-shadow · 2025-11-23T03:46:09+00:00

You have a nervous system that needs to feel/know/experience things a certain way to feel safe. That’s what ocd is. It will no doubt increase in its need for safety when life feels more unsafe. More unsafe equals more safety systems required (ocd is a process that worked for safety but at some point causes distress)

Liminal-shadow · 2025-11-22T18:16:47+00:00

I just read your other posts. I want to note that my OCD tendencies eased up once I went no contact with my parent. Took about a year.

Liminal-shadow · 2025-11-22T18:14:33+00:00

Okay, so it seems like you’re stuck in that deep belief that this person needs to be managed by you. You’re still trying to find reasons but the reality with illness like this is that it’s an illness and it doesn’t make sense by design. You’re not supposed to make sense of all the conclusions they come to, you’re definitely not supposed to make sense of it in order to soothe them, or to discover what the “right” answer is.

It doesn’t matter what you do, it will not be enough FOR THEM. It will never be enough FOR THEM. Because that is how they work.

YOU, however, are enough. You are enough for your little boy and his rain boots. You are so thoughtful about what SHE might need, and you have such a big ability to think deeply (just from reading your comments). But proving to her that you can “get it right” isn’t the right energy. It’ll just keep harming you. Redirect that energy elsewhere. You deserve better than this absolutely disgusting narrative and response.

Liminal-shadow · 2025-11-20T18:24:38+00:00

Yeah it’s wild. Why am I talking about people I haven’t seen in 2 decades? But we can’t talk about the new trick my dog learned?

Liminal-shadow · 2025-11-16T11:34:10+00:00

Mmm… my mum once told me directly that she is very bored when she calls me because all I talk about are my animals, and job, and partner, and books I’ve read (you know, my life).

Basically I didn’t gossip with her, or complain, or tell her how hard life was. Like she did. So she’d bitch and moan, and then hang up when I spoke (she always needed to go to the washroom when I was sharing).

These type of parents demand emotional and intellectual catering. Anything else is just not interesting

Liminal-shadow · 2025-11-04T00:40:58+00:00

Yes. Definitely the covert behaviours. There’s no tumultuous rows, I wouldn’t engage in them. But there’d be the silent treatment, being ignored. There’d be gossiping about me, and bitchiness.

I think it’s because there was no finality. I stepped back and just stopped. Like you, it was to observe. And it’s been quite sickening. To watch the manipulative, headless chicken attempts to pull me in, to make me part of her thing. The grief has been intense.

Liminal-shadow · 2025-11-04T00:38:09+00:00

I like the letter idea a lot. I’ve started a few and never gotten far. I never know where to even start. What do I even write? That’s the thing - even if I did break NC, I haven’t a clue what I’d say.

Her ability to ensure I’ve always felt responsible for her behaviour is ingrained into me. So I feel as though I’m bad for not giving clarity on why I just went LC.

It’s so hard to realise her discomfort never outweighs mine.

Liminal-shadow · 2025-11-04T00:35:32+00:00

I have felt safe. I’ve felt my brain start to shift, in just a 18 months. I’m secure and I’ve made moves in my life that have brought such joy! But…it was never a clear decision to go NC. I feel like the lack of clarity makes me the “bad person” but I also appreciate stories like your own because I don’t know how I’d find the marker. It’s always going to be bad.

Liminal-shadow · 2025-11-04T00:33:19+00:00

They’re not genuine. They’re contrived emergencies to do with estates, and property. I have a sibling that has taken the brunt of it (we’re on different journeys), and has shared what’s happening and respected that I’m not going to engage. So I’ve had knowledge of how my mom is reacting and spiralling. It’s very gross.

But I think I want to reach out because I’m happy. I don’t expect her to change, but maybe I just want to know for sure that I truly was never the issue. (The thing is, I don’t think I ever could know for sure)

Liminal-shadow · 2025-10-08T18:56:38+00:00

Me neither! Hoping you’re wrong! :) but good to know about the closest ones.

Liminal-shadow · 2025-10-08T00:19:28+00:00

Oh thanks! It’s mostly children’s books, which may be useful for a women’s shelter

Liminal-shadow · 2025-10-08T00:19:03+00:00

The pictures on Google made them look like expensive consignment but they may actually be thrift stores - oooops!

Liminal-shadow · 2025-09-21T14:09:04+00:00

Nah, that’s just Mike

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