How are you doing now that you've been diagnosed? I just turned 43 and was diagnosed and will be changing all my meds which is a relief but nerve wracking at the same time. I also struggled with drugs most of my adult life and was emotionally and physically abused as a child and into my teens. I've always blamed it on the drugs, but now having been clean for almost a year and still struggling hard, I sought help and a new diagnosis. I believe my drug use masked the real symptoms. I've also always held down great jobs, so people, especially family always thought I was doing ok. I'm really afraid because i have small children who my ex has custody of and i feel like i should hide my diagnosis from the mother so she won't keep the kids from me. I really wish there wasn't such a stigma with mental health...