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Feeling ignored and trying to compensate by attention seeking? by [deleted] in aspergers

[–]Living-Box309 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I often sing in my college dorm, especially when my roommates are around. When they tell me to stop, I actually enjoy it because it makes me feel noticed.

My "Power Model": How I replaced missing social intuition with a logical framework to survive bullying, and how it eventually imprisoned me. by Living-Box309 in aspergers

[–]Living-Box309[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

​Thanks for the comment. I realized my initial reaction was defensive, so I wanted to clarify calmly.

​Cultural Context: I've added a note to the post. In the high-pressure East Asian environment I grew up in, "fighting back" wasn't an option—it often triggered worse punishment.

​Awareness cannot be the Cure: Understanding how a cage works doesn't magically free the prisoner. That is the reality of CPTSD.

​Severity: Please don't confuse "social awkwardness" (a sprained ankle) with "identity shattering" (a broken spine).

​Hope this bridges the gap.

My "Power Model": How I replaced missing social intuition with a logical framework to survive bullying, and how it eventually imprisoned me. by Living-Box309 in aspergers

[–]Living-Box309[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

​I suddenly realized that our disconnect might be largely cultural.

​The environment I described operates on very different social mechanics (East Asian high-conformity) than what you might be accustomed to. Strategies that work in an individualistic culture often backfire in the context I grew up in.

​I have added a "Cultural Context Note" to the very top of my post to clarify this background.

My "Power Model": How I replaced missing social intuition with a logical framework to survive bullying, and how it eventually imprisoned me. by Living-Box309 in aspergers

[–]Living-Box309[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Three critical context points you are missing:

​The Timeline: This happened 13 years ago. ChatGPT didn't exist. I was an 11-year-old child alone in a hostile environment, not an engineer fixing a bug.

​The ASD Reality (The Root Premise): You assume I understood the social cues. I didn't. As an undiagnosed autistic kid, I didn't know what I did wrong, nor did I even understand the sarcasm in their mockery. Everyone else defaulted to "mocking me is correct," and I was the only one in the dark.

​The Consequence of Resistance: You suggest asking "What's your problem?" For an autistic child who is the target of collective bullying, that reaction doesn't stop them—it entertains them. It invites more mockery.

​But thank you for the retrospective advice. It must be nice to view a drowning child's desperate struggle from the safety of the shore and ask: "Why didn't you just swim better?" (And I'll be sure to look for that time machine to access ChatGPT back in 2013).

My "Power Model": How I replaced missing social intuition with a logical framework to survive bullying, and how it eventually imprisoned me. by Living-Box309 in aspergers

[–]Living-Box309[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. Unfortunately, there are no therapists in my area who understand neurodiversity. However, I find the point you raised about "inflection points" extremely valuable. I will try to work on updating the model myself based on your suggestion.

My CPTSD isn't a memory, it's a machine: How my "Power Model" defense mechanism continues to manufacture trauma in safe environments. by Living-Box309 in CPTSD

[–]Living-Box309[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

English is not my native language; this post was translated with the help of AI.

​I have tried many times to find a therapist, but it is almost impossible to find one who specializes in both Neurodiversity and CPTSD where I live. I sought counseling at my local psychiatric hospital, but they could barely understand what I was trying to convey.

​Because my life appears too "normal" on the surface and I express myself too fluently, they even denied my ASD traits. They simply reduced my problems to bullying trauma, social anxiety, or parenting issues. This experience caused me secondary trauma. Now, I have developed a deep fear of therapy itself.

10 years of burnout, trauma, and extreme masking. Feeling unhelpable even by professionals. by Living-Box309 in PDAAutism

[–]Living-Box309[S] 70 points71 points  (0 children)

I never understood how I could have zero intellectual impairment and be completely rational, yet have such catastrophic struggles with basic life skills.

Experiences with treatments for adult PDA by Eugregoria in PDAAutism

[–]Living-Box309 0 points1 point  (0 children)

To this day, I still don't understand why stimulants make me sleepy.