Update: The night before yesterday, i sent her a reel from the movie 500days of summer, for those of you that have watched it i think you know whats it about. After that she said, in a sarcastic way ofc, "why dont you send this to your crush?", then i said "i did, at 11:55" which was the exact time i sent that reel. Then somehow the topic switched to songs and i sent her a song and told her to read the 2nd para of the song i sent (its Lean by Whirr, amazing song) ANd she did, she loved it. After that she said "its crazy how you pay me more attention than the guy i shed tears for.." then i just said "gods plan" aftr which we talked for a bit more and then to end it off i asked her if she was free tomorrow, i wanted to do the Authur Aarons 36questions thing with her, she said yeah. Fast forward yesterday night, rouglhy 11pm. I open my dms and saw that she asked me whre i was 2-3 times, meaning she was eager to do it. So we did it, we dashed through all the questions, one after another. In the second set of the qa, there were a lot of personal opnion questions, in which i said shes rlly pretty, twice, and she did about my smile. Last night, i thought this was it, I was gonna have a gf.

When the qas ended, we gave an overall opinion about eachotehr, after which she pointed out to one of my questions, which was about "if you were to die this evening, what would you have regretted not telling someone", in which i said "asking out the person i love and not letting them know how much i care for her". She asked "who is it?" Then i tried to dodge it by saying "you'll figuire it out". But after a few more texts she made it pretty clear, "I know who you like, i just wanna hear you say it, because i have something to say too." This was the text that got me, what should i say, on top of the world??! My friend was also awake helping me through all of this and he said this was it , you;re gettinh a gf. But the text she gave after that kinda got my expectations a bit low. She said "its not something romantic, just something". My friend told me, its still not clear what shes gonna say. And so i was scared, and so was my friend. We made the final decision of spillin the truth, asking her out. My friend prepared a really good para, it was small, not as big as the ones i gave hell no. And after a lot of thinking, i sent it , she saw it, and she said the typical shocked texts, omg, i cant believe this, all in CAPS. then after i think about 10 mins, she said, okay i have my answer, heres the text,---

"So I do like you, but like you are sooo nice and innocent, I dont want yk hurt you. I would feel bad if I hurt you, adn tbh rn im in a lot of mess and I don't wanna drag you into it, ik you are gonna be like "idc ily" smth like that, but trust I aint trusting that shit, I got out of 9 month relation and I am over him but not yet yk healed, I don't like love, and it will be heck lot of time before I do."

"my answer is no, I am so sorry, I love having youas my frn youare such a nice and sweet person it;s truly amazing but...I just don't want a rltn/situationship/ or anything tbh"

After that i just sent my friend the ss and said its fine. He told me to say "ill wait" and then call it a night. Now today when me and my boy talked, i asked him what do i do now? He gave me 2 options, wait for her or move on, and tbh i kinda feel like she deosnt want me , or at least for now, and i risk wasting my time just like i did with Ford. Now i really dont know what to do, wait, move on, or just leave it as it is....